I’ve been in a lovely roller coaster pattern of emotions and just plain and simple doing. Running is so fascinating. As you know, I started this journey with running about 2 years ago working out with a trainer. Sure I was doing great things with him but I was not losing much weight. My back was still bothering me regularly and well, I was always scared to try anything because of my hip. I still have these mental road blocks but today, I push right through them, which is probably something running has taught me.
So as far as the roller coaster goes. My first one is really my patterns. I was doing either yoga or running every day for a little over a month when a week where my schedule was getting the best of me and well, I could’t make it to the gym- yes an excuse. I have not done much of the cold outdoor running because well, it’s cold. I hate the way it feels on my lungs and it just seems so much harder but easier at the same time. Okay, yes- I need to do better with this, we will get there- goal for next year… 😉
With this one week of throwing me off, I did get lazy. I made more excuses the following week on getting to the gym and finally got myself there. I’ve been reading the book Running for Women by Danica Newon and in this, it suggested a different running pattern than I’ve been using (still sticking to the 80/20 but thought I’d give it a try this week). Much more math involved and well I definitely was not perfect but who is?
I did enjoy the difference but I do think it’s because I was changing it up- keeping in my for further reference. I also, took the tip of listening to a good book while running the long runs. I have been doing this my last couple of runs and I really don’t want to get off the treadmill because I want to keep listening. The fun part is I really don’t have time to do it any other time so it does help me to stay focused if I want to know what’s going to happen in this book.
Emotions- I hate missing a day. I beat myself up mentally on it. If I get a good yoga session in, I’m less likely to do that but it is hard. This leads to me questioning, can I do this? Will I be able to run 26.2 miles in a year??? Which brings on this whole new set of anxiety. Then I remember to take it one day at a time. I think of all I have accomplished. I remember my first mile run test with the trainer. OH man, was I going to die and what was it? 13. something mins for that run- not horrible but he had told me goal to be in decent shape is 12 mins. Then my beautiful daughters are doing it in like 8-9 mins. My son could in like 7 mins.
I thought man, I’m never going to hit 12 mins and at that time, I said I would never be a runner. Then a friend of mine posted to facebook her list of runs for that year. I’m like okay, everyone I know that runs is in good shape. They look great, feel great- lets give it a try. This friend was running in my town and why not sign up for that one. At the time, it gave me 3 months to learn to run 3.1 miles- simple enough. I knew I could do a walk/ run of 2 miles and adding a 3rd shouldn’t be terrible. I finished that race in I think 48 mins. First mile was 13 something, second 14 something and third 15 something.
I now can do a 5k in under 40 mins and run a 12 min mile. It isn’t easy doing this on the treadmill because on the treadmill, my mind gets the better of me and I really do have to push through mental road blocks. But when I’m outside and don’t know how far I’m running or how fast that I’m going, I’m free and run so much better. Knowing how far that I’ve come, helps me to focus on how far I can go. Now, to get myself feeling better so I can get back to my long run today would be great but probably tomorrow- now this is going to be hard…Sending All My Love!
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