Discovering myself

Lately, I have been stuck in a rut and really actually learning who I am. The learning part started when I started this job just about 2 years ago.  This was the first time that I was introduced to the Strengths Finder, which is a book/ test that helps your to know your greatest strengths and how they affect you.

I discovered that Belief, Strategic, Individualization, Learner, and Achiever are my greatest. Belief and Learner was no surprise and I know that anything that I believe in, I will stand up and fight.  I could learn forever. The other three, once I knew what they meant, I knew them to be true too.

The one that surprised me the most was achiever. Why, you ask? Well, you see when I see that word, I instantly think of someone who is at the top. You know the top sales person, which I have never been. I might have helped the top person get there because I have that learner ability, which includes sharing my knowledge but I have never been that person that needed to be the top sales person.  Her e is what I found out; I like checkboxes and better yet, I like them checked off. Okay, yes I AM an achiever.

Strategy, hmmmm.  I’ve always seen everything as a map. I remember trying to explain this to my husband once and he was like hunh? So seriously though. Every option available is on my map. The path to get there is all the content for the situation and I see where it would cause curves around a mountain. All the paths lead to the end goal and I can quickly see the best path to take. Well apparently this is strategic. No, it wasn’t exactly how they explained it in the book but when I read that, I knew exactly what part of my life it was talking about.

Individualization is a no-brainer but I don’t know that I realized that I was doing it. That is where I work hard to know something about a person. Have an upcoming trip? A kid in hockey? What is important to you? The next time I see you, I will be sure to ask you about that thing and make you feel important in that way. This one is kind of funny to me because I could never understand why people didn’t remember the simplest things and really, it would irritate me. Well, now I know it’s in my DNA, it’s a strength of mine.

This was great knowledge that has helped me to further discover more about myself and ask myself why do I do this. In the last few years, I have changed as a person. I am stronger than I ever knew. I know the biggest piece of why this is, is because I gave up trying so hard to be someone I wanted to be and gave myself completely to God. Sure, I still struggle but since I made a conscious decision that I would follow his direction, praise Him daily and learn how to be a better person based on who He wanted me to be. My life changed.

This last year, I have been struggling with my work. I was fighting and complaining all the time. I could not keep a float. This job isn’t for me. Once, I stopped complaining and trusting in God. I have an all knowing sense of this is where I need to be because God has me here. I am happier. I still have a lot of work to do. I have left it at work for the first time ever though. I don’t not check my email when at home. This is new for me. I have learned more about what I want in life. Where my focus is at and goals that will lead me.

I know that God will lead me a different direction if I try to put it all on my own desires to be a certain person. I also know God gave me my strengths for a reason and not to pursue them with everything I have is not obeying him. So my new goal is to do that. I have learned a lot from my parents too and that is the other things that I have been noticing but we’ll save them for another day.

Have a blessed night all!

Sending All My Love!
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