If I was more like

Do you ever find yourself comparing yourself to another person? If I was more like Henry, I’d be popular. I wish I had the confidence of Olivia. Or I just wish I wasn’t so angry all the time and more like Ginger. Okay so I used some fun names to make a point but I said that this morning watching Olivia Newton John on stage in a video.

Immediately, I told myself that I don’t need to be like that because I am who I want to be. Now, that is hard because we don’t always see our values. The funny thing is at work, I get told this all the time. I have a co-worker who says that I am so good on the phone and she strives to be like me. It always throws me off as I don’t see myself as anything but me. You know?

I’ve always been a bit of a baby whisper and people I know will hand their babies to me knowing full well that I could probably put them to sleep. And when I did daycare, I had a baby who wouldn’t even go to grandma but the first time meeting me came to me without a tear.

My point is we all have our special gifts and we should embrace what we have instead of looking at someone and say I want that. We are special too. The person who tells me I’m great on the phone is the same person that I wish I could be more firey like. But that is what makes us a great team. We each have our strengths and if we were all the same, well then nothing would probably be accomplished.

Have a great day!!

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Just write

I have found myself thinking a lot about my next blog lately. Problem is so many ideas and no time to sit in front of the computer. Then the ideas change, whether it is the same general idea that has changed into a new way to write it that might be good but not how I remembered feeling or if it is just completely forgotten and a new idea pops in my mind.

So many ideas on running. I’ve learned so much in this time of no writing. Then the whole shooting in Florida and wow did I think of some powerful ideas/ well thoughts mostly. I mean we keep hearing on the gun control and oh my gosh do people go crazy on this and not hear the full thoughts of each side. Each side has great ideas but no one wants to listen, they just want to fight, which is just as bad as the shooter.

So this blog is just a reminder that if you are thinking it, write it out. It doesn’t have to be in front of a computer but if you get it down on paper then one day it can get out in different ways.

OH and I finally started my thankful journal of the year. Its been hard to keep up with every night, I’m just trying to remember the great things of the day and just be thankful.

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Running for a cause

Okay for the last 2 weeks I have wanted to get in front of a computer to blog but wow does life get in the way. 🙂

So 2 weeks ago, I wanted to tell you how bad not stretching is for you.  As you know, I typically yoga before and after a run and on my “rest” days. Well that 1 week, I just didn’t have the time. Found myself running in more ways than 1 and not having time to stretch much (yoga is more than that but for this week…). Well come Monday after that morning run- oh my was a I sore. I started a new to me app- Nike + Run. But I did not run anything that was much different that week from normal.

I came to realize how important stretching or my yoga really is. I don’t get sore- sore. I get that oh my I worked out sore a bit but not that I can’t move sore when I do my yoga. Funny thing is yoga makes me so much stronger so I can feel that workout sore from that too. I love it! And will not risk that again.

So I mentioned the app- Well I have to tell you how much I love this app- seriously! I have slowed way down which is a bit uncomfortable, especially at first but it’s made me a better runner. I can run for longer times and my sprints are getting much faster. I love it! seriously to the point I am obsessed. lol

So tonight was the big really learning about what I am doing by signing up for this race with world vision. I learned about the cause more. So there are kids that have to walk miles for clean water. They talked particularly about this one girl who is now 13. She has been walking since she was 4- 3 miles to get dirty water every day for her family. She risks so many things in this walk- animal predators and people ones. Scary stuff. I learned that it only took $50 to get her clean water for a lifetime. This is what I am doing raising money for kids like her to get water- no clean water, not the dirty stuff that kills 800 children a day!- for a lifetime. I don’t know how I could have said no- 26.2 miles- I said never. Well here is never and I am going to kick never’s Arse!

If you want to sponsor me-  https://www.teamworldvision.org/participant/106684

Whatever you can do helps- 5 people donating $10 would get that water for one for a lifetime so that is just a start. I want to get water for 200 kids. That is saving the lives of 1/4 who pass away each day from dirty water! Crazy. But there are so many others running with me. One person cannot do it all but together we are a beast and we will tackle it together. Thank you all for your support- love to you!

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Mortality

Over the last week or so, I have watched a friend go through the hard times of watching her mom in the hospital and eventually her gate was open to walk with Jesus. Her family was close by and it looks like they made so many wonderful memories in the hardest of times. Many times I found myself crying even though I never met this family because I understand so well what they are going through.

I remember that summer before thinking mom had a look in her eyes like she knew her final days were coming soon. I told my husband, we don’t have long with mom, maybe 6 months. He said, “Really?” and didn’t see what I saw but knew that we were close and sometimes I just know these things. Right before that Christmas, I remember thinking that she didn’t look well again- she just had this look in her eyes that I could see her time was coming. She ended up going into the doctor because of this cough and he officially told my parents it wouldn’t be long.

She celebrated Christmas with us and we got her into the nursing home after. She wasn’t doing well. She did her best every day to show us she was okay though. She hated the breathing tube so took it out of her nose often. She also tried to be stubborn with doing stuff for herself but they installed an alarm on her bed that went off if she tried to get out on her own. She couldn’t breathe well and it was really hard for her to even walk to the bathroom.

We colored and played cards when she was up for it and visited often. I knew she was hanging on for something but knew it wouldn’t be long. Easter came around. I saw her that morning on my way to the inlaw’s home. I told her I would be back after the others visited. I knew everyone was coming and with our family that would be crowded in that nursing home. I gave her a big hug, she didn’t have much in her hugs in weeks. She smiled, she was so happy for everyone to be coming.

I stopped back to the nursing home, I heard mom had such a wonderful day. I came into the room and she could barely move. I knew it would be soon. I gave her a hug and she just hung on. It was her strongest hug in a very long time. I said, “it’s okay mom, you can go see grandma and grandpa. I’ll be okay”. She shook her head yes and just held on for a few mins more. She fell back to sleep and I left.

I called my sister who was the contact for everything and I said you call me the second you hear. She was like what do you mean? mom was so good today, she laughed, told jokes, and so full of life. I said, Kathy- it will be soon. I explained what happened tonight and she was a bit baffled but knew I was probably right. I got the text first thing the next morning and I jumped in the car and went straight out there. She was barely breathing and passed so beautifully in front of the few of us that were there. My sister who was travelling still, said she saw a light in the rain and knew what had happened. She was close. It was so beautiful.

It is so hard to lose a mother but also so hard to watch them suffer. My prayers are going out to my friend’s family. I pray that they find comfort in knowing that she led a good life and will be going onto her eternal life free from pain. My love goes out to all who have lost someone close to them or going through anything similar.

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Complaining Goal

This year I have actually decided that I would focus on “resolutions”. This is one that didn’t make the “list” per say but one that I find just as important to work on. We have become a society that has found humor in complaining and it has become a focus. Monday is coming- oh no another work week. What? Our ancestors thrived in working. We go to school to become our dream only complain about doing it?

When I was re-reading Psycho-Cybernetics (which is like reading for the first time), I heard that someone predicted that the “Thank God it’s Friday” phrase would stir up an “Oh no it’s Monday” phrase. It did. To push it further, we now get a long holiday weekend or vacation and absolutely dread going back to work the next week. It doesn’t make sense.

I look at my 18 year old son and he is proud to be working. He is a sandwich artist and he does everything he can to work. He does not complain. He is in college to do something much more and he is enjoying his ride to get there. I think sometimes we are so focused on what we want in the future that we forget to just sit back and enjoy where we are now.

I do believe this starts with a mindset of thankfulness and looking forward to each day as it comes. Work is not going to go away and if we spend each week dreading Monday, we are wasting at least one-seventh of our life complaining about Mondays. Wow, that is too much time focused on the negative. So this year I am vowing to look at each day as a new adventure, to be happy with what I have (I could be jobless and be stressed about so much more), and to make sure I know each day what I am thankful for. What are your commitments?

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2018 Goals

I’ve been doing a lot of thinking about the things that I want to start doing. I’m really doing a purging week this week to start strong.

But it is a little ironic when I think about my post for New Years last year and when I look back over the year.

Some things I find myself thinking about is

  • being careful not to go overboard to a point that I quit
  • How will I stay on track since I’ve set some major goals
  • Is there a team I can join to keep accountability
  • And so many other fears that have me questioning everything

I hate setting anything with a new year in mind but honestly it’s more about timing than a new year. See I set the goal for marathon before now. I knew the holidays would be hard and while I tried to keep to a schedule, as soon as I got busy that went away. How fitting that my previous trainers newsletter today was all about excuses. He stated that if you were promised millions of dollars would you find a way anyway to get you healthy living done?

Wow that’s pretty powerful and I do it all the time. This is a huge reason why I’m scared to commit to the marathon. I’m great at making excuses and that is not a way to live. I need to fight for my health and doing things right and subsequently this race.

So while I enter a new year with many goals, most are mini-goals to achieve a much larger goal which I’m hoping in the long run will lead to a life long of better health (looky there I made a pun)

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Conformity

I am different. Sometimes my thoughts, actions, clothes, and everything else is not the same as everyone else and guess what? It is okay! I’ve been thinking a lot about this lately. I have raised 4 children that are young adults and each are so incredibly different from one another. They have the same moral compass for the main part but could not be further from the same. Sometimes I find myself questioning this and how it came to be.

The thing is, there are times in my life that I feel like I’m losing an argument because my opinion of something does not conform to the crowd. My opinion vs. theirs does not make either one of us right or wrong- it is how we feel. Why do we do this to each other. I’ve seen pure stubbornness come out to the point that people fight when you can see neither wants to anymore. But the thing is, they know that what they feel is valid and the other person just cannot see so they try to explain in different ways to get the other person to understand. But all that comes out is more frustration because the other person is doing the same. Both are feeling Like the other is understanding and no one is winning.

Why is it so hard to understand the easiest thing to do would be to say- I understand your point of view and mine is different. Both are okay to have and we should not change either just know that we each have a point of view.

One of my favorite quotes by an unknown author is “You don’t have to be like the world to have an impact on the world. You don’t have to be like the crowd to change the crowd. You don’t have to lower yourself down to their level to lift them up to your level. Holiness doesn’t seek to be odd. Holiness seeks to be like God”

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Give your praise

before you hit your knee- what a great phrase, have you ever thought about what it means?

It is so easy for us to fall into the victim role- it made not be our mentality per say but we fall into this role without thinking about it. We will think why is this happening to me and then we go straight to prayer griping about our woes. We ask, ask, ask, and repeat.

Now let’s stop and think about the saying. Giving praise does so much for us than we realize. Not only are we recognizing God for all that He does, we are seeing the great things in our life. Our focus begins to shift. We realize that it is not all bad.

A big question is where to get started. Praise doesn’t always come easy, especially when facing something big in our life. We tend to lose focus of the good and only see bad. I like to call this walking around in the dark and only seeing the dark. We forget to search for the light even though it is beckoning just beyond the tree line.

My advise- start with a list (if you know me, you know I LoVe my lists). I would say start really small. We tend to lean towards the big stuff first because we want to just jump. This is overwhelming and yes easy to give up. So write 1 thing down a day, if that is all you can do. Since it is common to start my goals in 3-5s, I would say start there. But do what you can, just remember not to over do it.

You can start at the simplest. I’m thankful for the roof over my head, food on my table, my family and pets. I’m thank to have a job, a car, place to live, and that list can go on and on. Easy enough, write down 3-5 similar each day. As you are going, start looking at more of your day. I’m thankful I made it to work on time and safe. I’m thankful that all my family made it home tonight to eat dinner around the table. I’m thankful for the time I spent with my friend or family member that is hard to see. The more you start to see these things daily, the more light you start to let in and the less dark your world will become.

Colossians 3:17 (NIV)

And whatever you do, whether in word or deed, do it all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him.

A book that I was recommended to read and is in my amazon cart for my next order is One Thousand Gifts by Ann Voskamp. My understanding it is about a woman who is finding her way to thankfulness and her recommendations on how to do this & what she experienced doing so. If you get this book, let me know what you think and I’ll do the same as soon as I read it.

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The unknown

There are so many topics that I want to talk about. My head keeps going through them over and over. My running progress, my day yesterday, the state of the world (okay maybe more of a society thing), and the list goes on. It all boils down to time- who has it?

I feel like I’m struggling lately with who I am. Okay not so much that as to who I am supposed to be. The Lord pretty much shouted at me to slow down yesterday. I had an over all bad day. I should have started my day in prayer or at least the small prayer that I do right before teaching. The kids were full of energy and I felt alone with the 12 kids. I even called out my assistant as he was just as loud yesterday. I lost my patience for a moment and I ended up feeling guilty. (I didn’t do anything major but it felt so big as this girl is a sweetheart and I know she didn’t mean to do anything and I made her cry- ugh)

So I finally got over it and moved on with my day. Come to last night, I have no idea how it happened as it doesn’t make sense. Our garage door is slow, yes, but it usually is well up before I get seated in my car. So what did I do to run into it? It was just the bottom panel and it took my antenna off, as well as scraped the top a bit- nothing major but still how? Nothing makes sense other than God saying that I need to stop.

Which leads me to my running progress as guess where I was heading when I hit the garage, the gym to run. I’m on day 42 of my move goals but have missed 3-4 days of doing any exercise and have done some quick yoga sessions at night just to get whatever I need for mins in. I’ve had so much on my plate that I’ve had no time to get in much running. Although my timing was not bad the last 2 times that I went.

The last topic on my mind that I’ve been wanting to blog on is swearing and how it is so widely accepted now. When I was a kid, you would have gotten smacked or mouth washed out for saying these things. And taking the Lord’s name in vain was so not accepted. Now we have cute emojis or sayings to cover it up but we use it in vain all the time. It was brought up in my Bible Study recently and it really got me thinking. Why have we wandered so far from the rules of the Bible or even common decency?

Now back to the topic of the unknown. This does all relate on some level. I’ve been struggling a lot of what are my next steps and am I doing enough. I know I’m not doing a job that is my calling and I know it is hard to start in that field. Plus until last night I really didn’t know what that was. Sure I assumed based on the things that I love to do but didn’t know for sure.

In my questions about doing enough, I decided to take this Poverty Cure class. Best thing that I have done for myself in a while (besides running). There is a lot of discussion about what is those living in poverty’s God given talent and how can they use it. Well this brings us to the point of how can we help. But in that if you don’t know yours, how can you help? So many questions. Well I took 3 tests last night to get answers on this. Every one of them points to teaching. 1 pointed to prophesy and another to Evangelism. 2 said writing was high for me, along with knowledge. Faith was definitely strong, as well.

So where does that bring me? Teaching is something I love and wanted to do for a while. Writing, well you know that I love that or you wouldn’t be reading this. I think it is a combination of both with Christ at the center. Now, how to get into this, is the question. Oh and how do I do this all in a way that I listen to the message to slow down (which was one that was given to me also when Hermione was missing)?

So I will be finishing out some real estate transaction and closing that door finally, which is amazing to me as I knew God wanted me to open it. But there is a big part of me that believes that it was to do the transactions that I have up to now and the one I’m working on.

I’ve had this dream of opening a youth center of sorts. I would have my bakery out of it (something that I’ve wanted for years is to bake). But it would be, I don’t know an arcade style, maybe roller skating, yoga studio, bible study type of thing. No clue. I don’t know honestly. A safe place is all I know that I could teach out of and write in my spare time. I thought about the bowling ally that has now been for sale for a couple of years but I still don’t know what that looks like.

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Amazing the kindness of strangers

I am in constant awe of the kindness of strangers. Hermione was so skinny and low on protein for being gone so long without food. The vet told us to add eggs and chicken to her diet. One neighbor that I still haven’t met in person dropped off all natural treats that she had for her dog of 11 years that passed away recently.

One of my husband’s co-workers, who had their own dog treat business, drove into work on one of his days that he didn’t have to, just to make sure to bring us 3 bags of his and his wife’s specialty treats. I have to tell you- my dogs would do flips for these treats. They have this all down to a science and the ingredients are amazing. But my dogs act like I am giving them food from the table (which we never do). These treats are packed with vitamins that help with recovery, which we all know that Hermione was/is needing this. So it’s been great seeing her grow. Click here if you want to get your own awesome treats!

I still have people reaching out to see how she is doing and that is truly amazing. So even though we tend to see all the bad in this world, there are so many good kind hearts that are truly amazing. Keep blessing others as you can. We can make a difference in this world.

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