Running for a cause

Okay for the last 2 weeks I have wanted to get in front of a computer to blog but wow does life get in the way. 🙂

So 2 weeks ago, I wanted to tell you how bad not stretching is for you.  As you know, I typically yoga before and after a run and on my “rest” days. Well that 1 week, I just didn’t have the time. Found myself running in more ways than 1 and not having time to stretch much (yoga is more than that but for this week…). Well come Monday after that morning run- oh my was a I sore. I started a new to me app- Nike + Run. But I did not run anything that was much different that week from normal.

I came to realize how important stretching or my yoga really is. I don’t get sore- sore. I get that oh my I worked out sore a bit but not that I can’t move sore when I do my yoga. Funny thing is yoga makes me so much stronger so I can feel that workout sore from that too. I love it! And will not risk that again.

So I mentioned the app- Well I have to tell you how much I love this app- seriously! I have slowed way down which is a bit uncomfortable, especially at first but it’s made me a better runner. I can run for longer times and my sprints are getting much faster. I love it! seriously to the point I am obsessed. lol

So tonight was the big really learning about what I am doing by signing up for this race with world vision. I learned about the cause more. So there are kids that have to walk miles for clean water. They talked particularly about this one girl who is now 13. She has been walking since she was 4- 3 miles to get dirty water every day for her family. She risks so many things in this walk- animal predators and people ones. Scary stuff. I learned that it only took $50 to get her clean water for a lifetime. This is what I am doing raising money for kids like her to get water- no clean water, not the dirty stuff that kills 800 children a day!- for a lifetime. I don’t know how I could have said no- 26.2 miles- I said never. Well here is never and I am going to kick never’s Arse!

If you want to sponsor me-  https://www.teamworldvision.org/participant/106684

Whatever you can do helps- 5 people donating $10 would get that water for one for a lifetime so that is just a start. I want to get water for 200 kids. That is saving the lives of 1/4 who pass away each day from dirty water! Crazy. But there are so many others running with me. One person cannot do it all but together we are a beast and we will tackle it together. Thank you all for your support- love to you!

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Mortality

Over the last week or so, I have watched a friend go through the hard times of watching her mom in the hospital and eventually her gate was open to walk with Jesus. Her family was close by and it looks like they made so many wonderful memories in the hardest of times. Many times I found myself crying even though I never met this family because I understand so well what they are going through.

I remember that summer before thinking mom had a look in her eyes like she knew her final days were coming soon. I told my husband, we don’t have long with mom, maybe 6 months. He said, “Really?” and didn’t see what I saw but knew that we were close and sometimes I just know these things. Right before that Christmas, I remember thinking that she didn’t look well again- she just had this look in her eyes that I could see her time was coming. She ended up going into the doctor because of this cough and he officially told my parents it wouldn’t be long.

She celebrated Christmas with us and we got her into the nursing home after. She wasn’t doing well. She did her best every day to show us she was okay though. She hated the breathing tube so took it out of her nose often. She also tried to be stubborn with doing stuff for herself but they installed an alarm on her bed that went off if she tried to get out on her own. She couldn’t breathe well and it was really hard for her to even walk to the bathroom.

We colored and played cards when she was up for it and visited often. I knew she was hanging on for something but knew it wouldn’t be long. Easter came around. I saw her that morning on my way to the inlaw’s home. I told her I would be back after the others visited. I knew everyone was coming and with our family that would be crowded in that nursing home. I gave her a big hug, she didn’t have much in her hugs in weeks. She smiled, she was so happy for everyone to be coming.

I stopped back to the nursing home, I heard mom had such a wonderful day. I came into the room and she could barely move. I knew it would be soon. I gave her a hug and she just hung on. It was her strongest hug in a very long time. I said, “it’s okay mom, you can go see grandma and grandpa. I’ll be okay”. She shook her head yes and just held on for a few mins more. She fell back to sleep and I left.

I called my sister who was the contact for everything and I said you call me the second you hear. She was like what do you mean? mom was so good today, she laughed, told jokes, and so full of life. I said, Kathy- it will be soon. I explained what happened tonight and she was a bit baffled but knew I was probably right. I got the text first thing the next morning and I jumped in the car and went straight out there. She was barely breathing and passed so beautifully in front of the few of us that were there. My sister who was travelling still, said she saw a light in the rain and knew what had happened. She was close. It was so beautiful.

It is so hard to lose a mother but also so hard to watch them suffer. My prayers are going out to my friend’s family. I pray that they find comfort in knowing that she led a good life and will be going onto her eternal life free from pain. My love goes out to all who have lost someone close to them or going through anything similar.

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Complaining Goal

This year I have actually decided that I would focus on “resolutions”. This is one that didn’t make the “list” per say but one that I find just as important to work on. We have become a society that has found humor in complaining and it has become a focus. Monday is coming- oh no another work week. What? Our ancestors thrived in working. We go to school to become our dream only complain about doing it?

When I was re-reading Psycho-Cybernetics (which is like reading for the first time), I heard that someone predicted that the “Thank God it’s Friday” phrase would stir up an “Oh no it’s Monday” phrase. It did. To push it further, we now get a long holiday weekend or vacation and absolutely dread going back to work the next week. It doesn’t make sense.

I look at my 18 year old son and he is proud to be working. He is a sandwich artist and he does everything he can to work. He does not complain. He is in college to do something much more and he is enjoying his ride to get there. I think sometimes we are so focused on what we want in the future that we forget to just sit back and enjoy where we are now.

I do believe this starts with a mindset of thankfulness and looking forward to each day as it comes. Work is not going to go away and if we spend each week dreading Monday, we are wasting at least one-seventh of our life complaining about Mondays. Wow, that is too much time focused on the negative. So this year I am vowing to look at each day as a new adventure, to be happy with what I have (I could be jobless and be stressed about so much more), and to make sure I know each day what I am thankful for. What are your commitments?

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2018 Goals

I’ve been doing a lot of thinking about the things that I want to start doing. I’m really doing a purging week this week to start strong.

But it is a little ironic when I think about my post for New Years last year and when I look back over the year.

Some things I find myself thinking about is

  • being careful not to go overboard to a point that I quit
  • How will I stay on track since I’ve set some major goals
  • Is there a team I can join to keep accountability
  • And so many other fears that have me questioning everything

I hate setting anything with a new year in mind but honestly it’s more about timing than a new year. See I set the goal for marathon before now. I knew the holidays would be hard and while I tried to keep to a schedule, as soon as I got busy that went away. How fitting that my previous trainers newsletter today was all about excuses. He stated that if you were promised millions of dollars would you find a way anyway to get you healthy living done?

Wow that’s pretty powerful and I do it all the time. This is a huge reason why I’m scared to commit to the marathon. I’m great at making excuses and that is not a way to live. I need to fight for my health and doing things right and subsequently this race.

So while I enter a new year with many goals, most are mini-goals to achieve a much larger goal which I’m hoping in the long run will lead to a life long of better health (looky there I made a pun)

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Conformity

I am different. Sometimes my thoughts, actions, clothes, and everything else is not the same as everyone else and guess what? It is okay! I’ve been thinking a lot about this lately. I have raised 4 children that are young adults and each are so incredibly different from one another. They have the same moral compass for the main part but could not be further from the same. Sometimes I find myself questioning this and how it came to be.

The thing is, there are times in my life that I feel like I’m losing an argument because my opinion of something does not conform to the crowd. My opinion vs. theirs does not make either one of us right or wrong- it is how we feel. Why do we do this to each other. I’ve seen pure stubbornness come out to the point that people fight when you can see neither wants to anymore. But the thing is, they know that what they feel is valid and the other person just cannot see so they try to explain in different ways to get the other person to understand. But all that comes out is more frustration because the other person is doing the same. Both are feeling Like the other is understanding and no one is winning.

Why is it so hard to understand the easiest thing to do would be to say- I understand your point of view and mine is different. Both are okay to have and we should not change either just know that we each have a point of view.

One of my favorite quotes by an unknown author is “You don’t have to be like the world to have an impact on the world. You don’t have to be like the crowd to change the crowd. You don’t have to lower yourself down to their level to lift them up to your level. Holiness doesn’t seek to be odd. Holiness seeks to be like God”

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Give your praise

before you hit your knee- what a great phrase, have you ever thought about what it means?

It is so easy for us to fall into the victim role- it made not be our mentality per say but we fall into this role without thinking about it. We will think why is this happening to me and then we go straight to prayer griping about our woes. We ask, ask, ask, and repeat.

Now let’s stop and think about the saying. Giving praise does so much for us than we realize. Not only are we recognizing God for all that He does, we are seeing the great things in our life. Our focus begins to shift. We realize that it is not all bad.

A big question is where to get started. Praise doesn’t always come easy, especially when facing something big in our life. We tend to lose focus of the good and only see bad. I like to call this walking around in the dark and only seeing the dark. We forget to search for the light even though it is beckoning just beyond the tree line.

My advise- start with a list (if you know me, you know I LoVe my lists). I would say start really small. We tend to lean towards the big stuff first because we want to just jump. This is overwhelming and yes easy to give up. So write 1 thing down a day, if that is all you can do. Since it is common to start my goals in 3-5s, I would say start there. But do what you can, just remember not to over do it.

You can start at the simplest. I’m thankful for the roof over my head, food on my table, my family and pets. I’m thank to have a job, a car, place to live, and that list can go on and on. Easy enough, write down 3-5 similar each day. As you are going, start looking at more of your day. I’m thankful I made it to work on time and safe. I’m thankful that all my family made it home tonight to eat dinner around the table. I’m thankful for the time I spent with my friend or family member that is hard to see. The more you start to see these things daily, the more light you start to let in and the less dark your world will become.

Colossians 3:17 (NIV)

And whatever you do, whether in word or deed, do it all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him.

A book that I was recommended to read and is in my amazon cart for my next order is One Thousand Gifts by Ann Voskamp. My understanding it is about a woman who is finding her way to thankfulness and her recommendations on how to do this & what she experienced doing so. If you get this book, let me know what you think and I’ll do the same as soon as I read it.

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The unknown

There are so many topics that I want to talk about. My head keeps going through them over and over. My running progress, my day yesterday, the state of the world (okay maybe more of a society thing), and the list goes on. It all boils down to time- who has it?

I feel like I’m struggling lately with who I am. Okay not so much that as to who I am supposed to be. The Lord pretty much shouted at me to slow down yesterday. I had an over all bad day. I should have started my day in prayer or at least the small prayer that I do right before teaching. The kids were full of energy and I felt alone with the 12 kids. I even called out my assistant as he was just as loud yesterday. I lost my patience for a moment and I ended up feeling guilty. (I didn’t do anything major but it felt so big as this girl is a sweetheart and I know she didn’t mean to do anything and I made her cry- ugh)

So I finally got over it and moved on with my day. Come to last night, I have no idea how it happened as it doesn’t make sense. Our garage door is slow, yes, but it usually is well up before I get seated in my car. So what did I do to run into it? It was just the bottom panel and it took my antenna off, as well as scraped the top a bit- nothing major but still how? Nothing makes sense other than God saying that I need to stop.

Which leads me to my running progress as guess where I was heading when I hit the garage, the gym to run. I’m on day 42 of my move goals but have missed 3-4 days of doing any exercise and have done some quick yoga sessions at night just to get whatever I need for mins in. I’ve had so much on my plate that I’ve had no time to get in much running. Although my timing was not bad the last 2 times that I went.

The last topic on my mind that I’ve been wanting to blog on is swearing and how it is so widely accepted now. When I was a kid, you would have gotten smacked or mouth washed out for saying these things. And taking the Lord’s name in vain was so not accepted. Now we have cute emojis or sayings to cover it up but we use it in vain all the time. It was brought up in my Bible Study recently and it really got me thinking. Why have we wandered so far from the rules of the Bible or even common decency?

Now back to the topic of the unknown. This does all relate on some level. I’ve been struggling a lot of what are my next steps and am I doing enough. I know I’m not doing a job that is my calling and I know it is hard to start in that field. Plus until last night I really didn’t know what that was. Sure I assumed based on the things that I love to do but didn’t know for sure.

In my questions about doing enough, I decided to take this Poverty Cure class. Best thing that I have done for myself in a while (besides running). There is a lot of discussion about what is those living in poverty’s God given talent and how can they use it. Well this brings us to the point of how can we help. But in that if you don’t know yours, how can you help? So many questions. Well I took 3 tests last night to get answers on this. Every one of them points to teaching. 1 pointed to prophesy and another to Evangelism. 2 said writing was high for me, along with knowledge. Faith was definitely strong, as well.

So where does that bring me? Teaching is something I love and wanted to do for a while. Writing, well you know that I love that or you wouldn’t be reading this. I think it is a combination of both with Christ at the center. Now, how to get into this, is the question. Oh and how do I do this all in a way that I listen to the message to slow down (which was one that was given to me also when Hermione was missing)?

So I will be finishing out some real estate transaction and closing that door finally, which is amazing to me as I knew God wanted me to open it. But there is a big part of me that believes that it was to do the transactions that I have up to now and the one I’m working on.

I’ve had this dream of opening a youth center of sorts. I would have my bakery out of it (something that I’ve wanted for years is to bake). But it would be, I don’t know an arcade style, maybe roller skating, yoga studio, bible study type of thing. No clue. I don’t know honestly. A safe place is all I know that I could teach out of and write in my spare time. I thought about the bowling ally that has now been for sale for a couple of years but I still don’t know what that looks like.

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Amazing the kindness of strangers

I am in constant awe of the kindness of strangers. Hermione was so skinny and low on protein for being gone so long without food. The vet told us to add eggs and chicken to her diet. One neighbor that I still haven’t met in person dropped off all natural treats that she had for her dog of 11 years that passed away recently.

One of my husband’s co-workers, who had their own dog treat business, drove into work on one of his days that he didn’t have to, just to make sure to bring us 3 bags of his and his wife’s specialty treats. I have to tell you- my dogs would do flips for these treats. They have this all down to a science and the ingredients are amazing. But my dogs act like I am giving them food from the table (which we never do). These treats are packed with vitamins that help with recovery, which we all know that Hermione was/is needing this. So it’s been great seeing her grow. Click here if you want to get your own awesome treats!

I still have people reaching out to see how she is doing and that is truly amazing. So even though we tend to see all the bad in this world, there are so many good kind hearts that are truly amazing. Keep blessing others as you can. We can make a difference in this world.

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Miracles Are Amazing

So, I have to tell you that I reached a point on Tuesday night that I was starting to feel like we’ve never find our doggy. She had been gone 12 days and no sightings that we could confirm. Since day 1, I knew God had a plan for me in all of this. I knew I needed to have my eyes wide open and I still believed this and believed He was good & faithful so my thoughts kept going to someone having her. That it was innocent, they just didn’t know better.

So why did I know God wanted me to listen up? I just really felt it all the way through me is the biggest answer but not only that, I kept feeling like I missed something that night. All the things added up and not in the good way so I knew that part didn’t come from the Lord, He only does good.  But it was always weird that my son that has never walked Hermione by himself, that I can remember, decided this was the day he was going to start. He went to grab her harness but it wouldn’t go on right so he decided that she’d be fine in her collar. He took a way on this walk that he normally does not go. The flags that spooked Hermione, spooked her more than usual (I brought her by them the day before and was able to get her through them). That she ran away from him all together since she is so incredibly close to her family. I mean this is a dog that I never have on her leash to go in our garage or in the front yard to go for a ride. She wants to go with us more that she never leaves the yard. So really nothing added up. The way she ran at first, she knew so she could have gotten home but must of ended up in the field and that got her confused. So many things that I couldn’t explain so I knew I needed to listen up.

At first, I thought God was wanting me to tell about the kindness of strangers (and I still do). Hundreds of people reached out to me, shared my post to facebook. I had put it on swap and shops & spread the word through so many sites that night. My posts had over 700-800 shares and add in the comments, it was truly amazing. People messaged me with thoughts and prayers, offering to search for her, and even one person offered their drone to look over anywhere I thought she could be. The problem is she went into hiding and I had no idea where she could be.

This brings us to Wednesday. Still frustrated that its been 13 days and no sightings, I thought about getting this boxer that looks like she came from her litter. My husband said no at first because he still thought she was coming home. I said when she comes, she will have her sister, well on this Wednesday, a new picture came out of the rescue and he was more willing. Something kept eating at me this day. I went to Target after work and as I was driving home, I decided to talk to my mom.

My mom is in Heaven and it had been a while since I had talked to her. I said, “mom, I know its been a while but I need a big favor- she’s been missing for a while now. Can you please talk to Jesus for me? Ask him to fill me with the Holy Spirit so I know what I need to do. I miss her so much and I cannot stand the unknown. Love you mom.”

I went home and K started the food I bought, while I searched on my phone for any sign of her. I kind of just stood there thinking what do I do from here waiting for E to text me to pick her up. K decided she was going with me and we told the hubby to watch the Chili while gone. We were preheating the oven for the breadsticks. I picked up E and we headed to Dollar Tree to pick up only a few things. The person from the retrievers had been texting me on some things that I could do for our dog but I was kind like I feel like I’ve done everything that I can. Then it came over, a text that read- hi i messaged you on facebook already wondering if you’ve found your dog yet? my friend is in sierra and found a boxer.

he said it had a white patch on its chest and looks like the dog on the post.

I started shaking like you wouldn’t believe. I couldn’t believe it, that was my dog in the picture. I said “OMG. that looks like her. Where???” At this time my girls walked up to me and they could read my face and said what’s wrong? I couldn’t hardly speak so I said look. And they were like that’s her, where is she, lets go get her. I was texting- how’s she look by this time because I was trying to remember what they retrievers lady told me to say if a sighting came over. I asked a few more questions, when, were they able to call her?

20 minutes ago, he went to get a neighbor, he tried to call her, she was shy… 20 minutes ago- did you see that? Shortly after the time, I “talked to mom”. Jesus is good. God is good. He sent this miracle. This young man had gone back and got her. She let him carry her to his house (she’s never let anyone outside of the family too close to her). The Lord did that. We went there and picked her up.

She is very skinny.(Taken Thursday after vet kept her overnight)

But she is okay. A little antibiotics and bandaging for her raw feet but she is okay. We will be nursing her back to health as far as she went 13 days without food and lost 17 pounds (best guess). But she is good. She knows her home, her family, her old routines. She is amazing.

God is Amazing! So now I believe my job is to spread the word of His miracle! I love Him so much and glad He chose me to testify. It is through Him that she was saved!

“The voice of the Lord echoes above the sea. The God of glory thunders. The Lord thunders above the mighty sea. The voice of the Lord is powerful; the voice of the Lord is fully of majesty.”
Psalm 29: 3-4.

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Missing

Our dog went missing on Thursday night which brought on a lot of emotions and thoughts. First thing I did was take to facebook, which brought in a couple of responses. This lead me to crying and leaving work because one of the responses was that a neighbor thought she was hit by another car in front of them. I’ve only been in my job for four months and wow is what I can say. People dropped what they were doing to help me close up my desk and leave. Then a couple of people came straight to find me when they were done with my shift. They went around to the neighborhoods to see if anyone saw her.

In the meantime, my family searched the area that it was thought that she was hit. No sign of her. We had went through a neighbor’s yard to get to that area- someone that I had not met before. He jumped in his car to search. My son had been walking around trying to find her and several people started searching with him. Friends on facebook jumped in their cars to search. No sign of her anywhere.

I fell apart that evening. Yes, I missed her dearly- she is the happiest but scaredest dog I know- you know boxers, the moment that you walk into the room they are so happy to see you wiggling everything they have. She would have done anything to please her family. She got off her collar because she was afraid of the flags near the new homes. That made her bolt across the street which led to a whole new set of fears for her.
But I was also so worried for my kids- A because he was the one walking her, E- because she had a special bond with her, and K- because the bond was different (medical) but they also had a bond like no other. I was also so overwhelmed by the support that I experience from so many people including people I don’t know. I learned the power of facebook that night and if you want something to spread quickly- there is a way through facebook.

I went to bed late as I kept checking the doors, barely slept and officially got up at 4am. I went straight to the doors again to check for her- still not here. I paced around for the next two hours- during this time, E came to me and said she felt bad for not spending time with her lately because of school and activities. I was a mess with no sleep. Then, around 6- I knew I needed coffee and I forgot to get some to make. So I thought about going to our local coffee shop but this made me break. See, everytime I go there (and quite possibly too much), I bring our sweet girl. It is her favorite routine- go for a ride to get a treat! She wasn’t home to go and this killed me. I knew I needed sleep, so I fell asleep on the couch for an hour which led to K and I going out searching one more time.

In this time, I had so many people reach out to me on how they could help. I started to realize how focused that we as people get on the bad. There was a shooter, people are crazy, out to get you… This opened my eyes to the goodness out there. So many prayers have been received it is truly amazing.

My original post had 81 shares and 93 comments +plus all the comments that it got when I shared to swap and shop.
My lost dogs post got 455 shares (no I am not kidding- wow) and again many comments.
I took to the vet and rescue pages. another 100 shares. I’ve had several people reach out by messenger to help.
My husband who works out of town had several people that don’t live near here saw they saw my post on facebook (I’m not friends with them there)- it spread that far.

Just stop and think about how far this all went. We are talking about 700 possible shares and maybe more that I don’t even know about. hundreds of comments and so many that just jumped in a car to search. Amazing- God is powerful!

So I did get overwhelmed and consumed by this in the last few days. I wanted to find her and nothing else mattered. I forgot to let God control it. I’m not saying that I stop trying to look but I can’t let it control my life. So in Church yesterday, I was pretty depressed- Sunday School helped to take my mind of of everything for a moment. Then Church- wow- sometimes a sermon was meant for you. Discontentment. It leads to a spiral of negativity and so much worse. Contentment with God, leads to happiness. It is easy to go crazy when all you see is dark but letting go and letting God can work wonders. I trust that the Lord is moving- I mean the testimony is in the way the word has spread. So now I need to sit back and let Him work. While I continue to do His work that He has meant for me.

We miss our girl deeply and pray for a safe return. But we must now stop the bickering and depression in the house and trust that God is faithful. Please continue to pray for us. Thank you for all that have supported us. If you see her, you know what to do- call us- call the vet- or get someone very calm, very gentle with treats that will let her come to you. She is scared.

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