Week 1 – Year of Marathon

2018 has started off a bit on the rocky side. Monday was a tough run after celebrating the night before. I do not do well for a few days after staying up past 10 (really 9 but lately its been more like 10). I was on the treadmill for 47 mins but barely could do 3 miles.

Tuesday was yoga day and it really felt good to do this after yesterday’s workout. I started a 30 day series on You Tube. I also did 10 mins of Pilates abs. Wednesday- back to the treadmill. Today was much better but I couldn’t find my headphones which was not as bad as I was dreading it to be. I did 40 mins running and 20 walking on a incline fast paced. I did day 2 of yoga in the evening. The run was great but did get a bit tired at the end. Thursday is repeat run day but at slower pace. I was very sore this day so although I spent 56 mins at the gym, I was much slower- I was exhausted from sleeping hard too, not a great combo. Did day 3 of yoga that evening.

Friday is always yoga day. It was 33 mins this day and normally I aim for an hour total but did day 4 of the series and was still pretty sore. Saturday morning, I got up late, had my morning coffee and forced myself off to the gym- long run day. Got there and the parking lot was completely full. I mean even the school side was packed. I figured a mix of things going on here but thought fine, I’ll just go this evening. I headed out to visit my day and by the time I got home, I barely wanted to do my yoga routine but at least squeezed that in. Then made the excuse on Sunday that if I run, I’ll throw my next week’s run off so I just did yoga again.

Eating wise, I did okay. I haven’t started the Paleo but I’ve been doing better with avoiding cream in my coffee. This is hard. I’ve cooked more from home but did drive out to get a deep dish on Friday night. I need to start making this from home. I know it. I did pull out the pressure cookers last night and made an excellent version of our Chipotle Chicken and rice with veggies.

I do wonder how I’ll ever make it to marathon ready but at the same time, signed up for a couple more races that will make me want to run more sooner. No said it would be easy but I’m glad I have my journal to really take note of how I am feeling what I am doing and to try an work harder to the future. It is always just 1 step at a time and I know I can tackle anything I set my mind too even if my mind tries to counter it.

For those just starting out in running- imagine yourself doing it as much as possible. See the success and you will do it. Don’t let that piece of you that says nope never going to happen take over, counter it every time with a vision of your crossing that finish line. Start with the starting line, all those people around you, where you are starting, speed you want to go (I personally like the back so I can force myself slow at first than I do better over all), imagine the trail and those around you as you run, some will pass you and you will pass some, feel the breeze, see the hill, hear your music and even imagine the water stations, how you will run up to it, pause to grab a water cup, drink it down as your walking away, throw your cup and a way you go again. See that finish line now, now you push it forward, run more, you want to finish strong, you see that camera coming soon, try to smile with your body so you don’t look so dead in the photo (I hate how I look crossing the line every time- lol) and there you go, you did it!

Multiply this for longer races and you will get there. You can run and you can do this for your workout plans too. Get your mind wrapped around you doing this. You are strong.

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It’s okay to cheat

on your diet people- get your head out of the gutter. I would never condone hurting another person or breaking a commandment.

I’m already seeing posts on how many have already cheated on their 2018 diet. Who cares? Seriously it is okay. Do not let this define you or beat yourself up about it. I’ve been there, done that. It gives you a great excuse to quit and are you a quitter??? No!

So yes, you had that delicious coffee treat that cost you 500 calories. oh man. or maybe it was those leftover Christmas cookie- so yummy. Nope, it was those delicious red velvet cupcakes that I made with the yummy cream cheese frosting (Am I a genius in baking or what?). Yes, we all do it but we cannot let it define us.

Today, we get up and start again- no I hate that as much as I hate the word diet. We continue on with our practice. We go out and exercise again, we continue eating clean today and we do not let 1 little cheat define our new year. I know I am not. I’m not letting the scale define me either but I’ll save that for a different day rant. lol

Now go out there and kick some butt!

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Goals and Dreams

I read recently how goals are dreams with deadlines. I really like this way of looking at things. Goal setting is hard work but dreaming is easy. The reason that I love this saying though is in order to make any goal come true, you really have to dream it out. Think about the very thing that you want at that very moment. You need to imagine each step it takes to get that thing all the way down to the finest details. What are you wearing, what are you doing, where are you going, what are you driving to get there, what color is the room, how about the decor? Each one of these details are vital to making your dreams come true.

So in goal setting, it is important to follow the well-known SMART system. Make sure the goal is specific and that you have a time-frame in mind. Do not limit yourself by expectations though. Imagine yourself in the place you really want to be. Something that you can track your progress is important too but do not limit yourself to only picking something easy because of this. If you can do it in your mind, you can do it. Now obviously you may not fly a broomstick but at one time, a plane was unimaginable. The best thing you can do for yourself is to dream. Each day imagine each step it will take to get to your goals.

An example that I am working with right now is. I get up and imagine my workout for the day. How far am I going to go, what am I wearing, what am I listening to, how do I feel, what is the speed, what is my intention. I visualize it all out as soon as I get up to make it happen. My goal with this is to improve each workout, to get faster and stronger. Through these visualizations, I will have already convinced my mind that I did so doing it is not a problem.

This is how you build your confidence in your goals. No going back because you let your mind believe you can’t go any further. Time to convince yourself differently. I have a few books that I can recommend to help you get there. Take that leap of faith and do what you dreamed you can do.

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Christmas time and keeping on track

This is absolutely my favorite time of year. Since the moment that I got married, I have been doing everything I can to make this feeling last. It comes earlier (except the last couple of years, we have waited until Nov). Decorating is so much fun. Putting up each special ornament, the ones the kids spent so much time making when they were little to our fancy ones that we spent a bit of money on. I love pulling out each Santa, the nativity sets, my stop in for cocoa sign, it all is just so wonderful.

Shopping- well I have this love/ hate relationship with this. I do not like the big crowds or if people are pushy (yes, I avoid black Friday with everything I have- lol). But to find the gifts that I know each person will love, that is something special.

Baking- Here is the where the trouble tends to sneak in a bit. I love to bake and I’m good at it. It is so hard to resist my frosting (and I really am not the biggest fan otherwise) or my carmel- oh so yummy). Then my sister makes my other favorites and wow am I done.

Cooking- Yes, this is another downfall for me. I’m great at it but the problem is this time of year, I get soooooo busy that we do nothing but eat out. Yuck! And then the pounds start to come….

And last but not least- exercise. Yup I make every excuse not to make it to the gym during this time of year. So what am I going to do to get back there? Well I went out a bought a few new things that I am excited to use and I hate to waste money. New running shoes- yay! These are my favorite. A new style of sports bra from Victoria Secret. I have always loved them for support as they have the double layering with the clip and zip. This one is lighter weight though and does not have the zip so I’m excited to see what I think. Then there is the new running log book. Yay! Something to keep focused on the marathon.

I also bought a Paleo book to try eating better. I’m committing to the 28 days of strict eating and will start to add somethings back but watching closely what I eat. Lastly I bought a new bag that I can carry my purse in if I want but most importantly carry my planners and some notebooks to stay really focused this year. I’m looking forward to an awesome 2018- how about you?

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A Fairytale

I was once asked, a long time ago, how could I believe as it sounds like a great story similar to Santa Claus. At that time, I was a bit thrown back and really wasn’t sure how to answer other than saying faith. Sure I’ve seen several things going around since then about how I would rather believe and be wrong and nothing happen than to not believe and be wrong and sentenced to a miserable afterlife. Sure that is great and all but here’s the thing, this friend is a great atheist friend of mind who needs facts.

She is an excellent person just never knew God. This question has haunted me for years. Anyone who knows a Christian well, knows that they love the opportunity to share and have been called to do so. So, when they haven’t been able to answer a question the way that they felt they should, it tends to bother them.

I have been reading Ezekiel off and on recently. The first chapter, you try to figure out what exactly he saw. It sounds like straight out of a movie with the 4 heads part man and part beast. But, it also leads to the thrown and the Lord. I would love to sit and analyze this out with a drawing one day. But when you read what he is called to do, it is not fairy tale story.   In fact, many would think he was crazy for listening to God in such a way.

This got me to thinking about the Bible as a whole and there is a lot of torture, war, anger, and no where near the loving story of Santa Claus. So, then there is Jesus, which I do think can sound very similar to those who don’t know Him. Sure, he saved us from out own sin. And he was a Saint but the torture that He endured is so much more or different than any story that I’ve read.

When I think of Saint Nick, sure there is the story of how he had to sneak around as to not get caught breaking the law but so he could spread the gifts of love and allow for children to have happiness. It is funny how this turned into a tradition of selfishness in many ways when it started so innocent. Jesus never snuck around even though many did not want to hear or believe who He was. He was ridiculed and punished even though He proved himself to be great time and time again.

Maybe this is why I froze on that day, there is so much to think about and how do you explain all of this in a short conversation. And with me, I definitely could make this so much longer with all the account of things not being easy at all but how in their beliefs, the conquered over evil. Okay so maybe that does sound a little fairy-talish but again, what does it really hurt to believe? And what happens if I’m right? I would much rather be here living my life in the name of the Father than questioning anything else.

Proverbs 15: 1- A gentle answer turns away wrath but harsh words stir up anger. 24- The path of life leads upward for the wise to keep him from going down to the grave.

Proverbs 16: 19-20- Better to be lowly in spirit and among the oppressed than to share plunder with the proud. Whoever gives heed to instruction prospers, and blessed is he who trusts in the Lord.

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Some questions that I get

I always think its funny the questions that I get asked when people hear about my workouts. I’m not super skinny, I’m a mom and well, I have a chest. I worked out with a trainer at my previous work and he would put us through a series of different workouts. One of his favorite exercises is jumping jacks.

Oh how so many of us hate this exercise and I think for a variety of reasons. Gym class as a kid, trying to figure out the coordination of this exercise to start. Well as you get older or if you had kids, you have a new reason to hate this exercise. It is hard to hold your bladder! So a question that I’ve been asked is how to I handle that. For me personally, just making sure that I’ve gone before a workout has been good enough. But I am a firm believer that the more strength that you build, the less likely that you have to worry about this.

My daughters and I teach Sunday School. Yesterday, at Church, we were in the family gathering portion of the Sunday School hour. The director or missions had told one of my daughter’s co-teacher that I was doing the marathon with her. This lady, then asked my daughter how I run. And said that I was like her and she really wants to run. So E being very embarrassed called me over. It was funny. I told her that I get the double duty bras at VS. They clasp first than zip and I feel that they have made all the difference. I tell people about these kind of bras all the time. You can now buy them anywhere but I have yet to try other brands. Maybe, now that I’m starting this new journey, I’ll have to review some products and see what works and what doesn’t.

Isn’t life fun? Enjoy your Monday run or whatever exercise you are doing today. Just remember to get out there and do something- anything to move.

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Running update- week 8

I’ve been in a lovely roller coaster pattern of emotions and just plain and simple doing. Running is so fascinating. As you know, I started this journey with running about 2 years ago working out with a trainer. Sure I was doing great things with him but I was not losing much weight. My back was still bothering me regularly and well, I was always scared to try anything because of my hip. I still have these mental road blocks but today, I push right through them, which is probably something running has taught me.

So as far as the roller coaster goes. My first one is really my patterns. I was doing either yoga or running every day for a little over a month when a week where my schedule was getting the best of me and well, I could’t make it to the gym- yes an excuse. I have not done much of the cold outdoor running because well, it’s cold. I hate the way it feels on my lungs and it just seems so much harder but easier at the same time. Okay, yes- I need to do better with this, we will get there- goal for next year… 😉

With this one week of throwing me off, I did get lazy. I made more excuses the following week on getting to the gym and finally got myself there. I’ve been reading the book Running for Women by Danica Newon and in this, it suggested a different running pattern than I’ve been using (still sticking to the 80/20 but thought I’d give it a try this week). Much more math involved and well I definitely was not perfect but who is?

I did enjoy the difference but I do think it’s because I was changing it up- keeping in my for further reference. I also, took the tip of listening to a good book while running the long runs. I have been doing this my last couple of runs and I really don’t want to get off the treadmill because I want to keep listening. The fun part is I really don’t have time to do it any other time so it does help me to stay focused if I want to know what’s going to happen in this book.

Emotions- I hate missing a day. I beat myself up mentally on it. If I get a good yoga session in, I’m less likely to do that but it is hard. This leads to me questioning, can I do this? Will I be able to run 26.2 miles in a year??? Which brings on this whole new set of anxiety. Then I remember to take it one day at a time. I think of all I have accomplished. I remember my first mile run test with the trainer. OH man, was I going to die and what was it? 13. something mins for that run- not horrible but he had told me goal to be in decent shape is 12 mins. Then my beautiful daughters are doing it in like 8-9 mins. My son could in like 7 mins.

I thought man, I’m never going to hit 12 mins and at that time, I said I would never be a runner. Then a friend of mine posted to facebook her list of runs for that year. I’m like okay, everyone I know that runs is in good shape. They look great, feel great- lets give it a try. This friend was running in my town and why not sign up for that one. At the time, it gave me 3 months to learn to run 3.1 miles- simple enough. I knew I could do a walk/ run of 2 miles and adding a 3rd shouldn’t be terrible. I finished that race in I think 48 mins. First mile was 13 something, second 14 something and third 15 something.

I now can do a 5k in under 40 mins and run a 12 min mile. It isn’t easy doing this on the treadmill because on the treadmill, my mind gets the better of me and I really do have to push through mental road blocks. But when I’m outside and don’t know how far I’m running or how fast that I’m going, I’m free and run so much better. Knowing how far that I’ve come, helps me to focus on how far I can go. Now, to get myself feeling better so I can get back to my long run today would be great but probably tomorrow- now this is going to be hard…

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Give your praise

before you hit your knee- what a great phrase, have you ever thought about what it means?

It is so easy for us to fall into the victim role- it made not be our mentality per say but we fall into this role without thinking about it. We will think why is this happening to me and then we go straight to prayer griping about our woes. We ask, ask, ask, and repeat.

Now let’s stop and think about the saying. Giving praise does so much for us than we realize. Not only are we recognizing God for all that He does, we are seeing the great things in our life. Our focus begins to shift. We realize that it is not all bad.

A big question is where to get started. Praise doesn’t always come easy, especially when facing something big in our life. We tend to lose focus of the good and only see bad. I like to call this walking around in the dark and only seeing the dark. We forget to search for the light even though it is beckoning just beyond the tree line.

My advise- start with a list (if you know me, you know I LoVe my lists). I would say start really small. We tend to lean towards the big stuff first because we want to just jump. This is overwhelming and yes easy to give up. So write 1 thing down a day, if that is all you can do. Since it is common to start my goals in 3-5s, I would say start there. But do what you can, just remember not to over do it.

You can start at the simplest. I’m thankful for the roof over my head, food on my table, my family and pets. I’m thank to have a job, a car, place to live, and that list can go on and on. Easy enough, write down 3-5 similar each day. As you are going, start looking at more of your day. I’m thankful I made it to work on time and safe. I’m thankful that all my family made it home tonight to eat dinner around the table. I’m thankful for the time I spent with my friend or family member that is hard to see. The more you start to see these things daily, the more light you start to let in and the less dark your world will become.

Colossians 3:17 (NIV)

And whatever you do, whether in word or deed, do it all in the name of the Lord Jesus, giving thanks to God the Father through him.

A book that I was recommended to read and is in my amazon cart for my next order is One Thousand Gifts by Ann Voskamp. My understanding it is about a woman who is finding her way to thankfulness and her recommendations on how to do this & what she experienced doing so. If you get this book, let me know what you think and I’ll do the same as soon as I read it.

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It is all in how you look at it

Life is so full of ups and downs. There are so many punches thrown our way and it is how we deal with each punch that defines us. Sometimes, it is a simple word. Other times, it may be a physical punch. But most of the time, its the trials that we are facing in life.

A lot starts with our thoughts, which we can control even though it seems so hard to do at times. Do we think the worst possible things? Are we trapped in thinking only bad will come? Or are we trying to look to the future and what that has in store for us. Are we taking each day as it comes?

I was reading in the Pslams today. David struggled so badly with this. He felt God was punishing him for his transgressions. He felt all alone and that so many were out to get him. Through it all he trusted in God, though. He knew that he needed to stay in prayer, praising the Lord, asking for forgiveness and then waiting for the storm to pass.

While David knew so much was going wrong in his life, he never thought this was the end all. He talked to God about all the things that was going on and then asked the Lord to walk with him, to forgive him. It is so powerful to know that someone has your back even if they are not of this world. Having that Holy Spirit living deep inside you is something to give praise to. This was a gift to us when Jesus left this world and I truly treasure it daily. Knowing this, I know I can conquer all the crap that is thrown at me, which lately has been a bit more.

Psalm 145- A psalm of praise of David.

I will exalt you, my God and King,
    and praise your name forever and ever.
I will praise you every day;
    yes, I will praise you forever.
Great is the Lord! He is most worthy of praise!
    No one can measure his greatness.

Let each generation tell its children of your mighty acts;
    let them proclaim your power.
I will meditate on your majestic, glorious splendor
    and your wonderful miracles.
Your awe-inspiring deeds will be on every tongue;
    I will proclaim your greatness.
Everyone will share the story of your wonderful goodness;
    they will sing with joy about your righteousness.

The Lord is merciful and compassionate,
    slow to get angry and filled with unfailing love.
The Lord is good to everyone.
    He showers compassion on all his creation.
10 All of your works will thank you, Lord,
    and your faithful followers will praise you.
11 They will speak of the glory of your kingdom;
    they will give examples of your power.
12 They will tell about your mighty deeds
    and about the majesty and glory of your reign.
13 For your kingdom is an everlasting kingdom.
    You rule throughout all generations.

The Lord always keeps his promises;
    he is gracious in all he does.
14 The Lord helps the fallen
    and lifts those bent beneath their loads.
15 The eyes of all look to you in hope;
    you give them their food as they need it.
16 When you open your hand,
    you satisfy the hunger and thirst of every living thing.
17 The Lord is righteous in everything he does;
    he is filled with kindness.
18 The Lord is close to all who call on him,
    yes, to all who call on him in truth.
19 He grants the desires of those who fear him;
    he hears their cries for help and rescues them.
20 The Lord protects all those who love him,
    but he destroys the wicked.

21 I will praise the Lord,
    and may everyone on earth bless his holy name
    forever and ever.

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The unknown

There are so many topics that I want to talk about. My head keeps going through them over and over. My running progress, my day yesterday, the state of the world (okay maybe more of a society thing), and the list goes on. It all boils down to time- who has it?

I feel like I’m struggling lately with who I am. Okay not so much that as to who I am supposed to be. The Lord pretty much shouted at me to slow down yesterday. I had an over all bad day. I should have started my day in prayer or at least the small prayer that I do right before teaching. The kids were full of energy and I felt alone with the 12 kids. I even called out my assistant as he was just as loud yesterday. I lost my patience for a moment and I ended up feeling guilty. (I didn’t do anything major but it felt so big as this girl is a sweetheart and I know she didn’t mean to do anything and I made her cry- ugh)

So I finally got over it and moved on with my day. Come to last night, I have no idea how it happened as it doesn’t make sense. Our garage door is slow, yes, but it usually is well up before I get seated in my car. So what did I do to run into it? It was just the bottom panel and it took my antenna off, as well as scraped the top a bit- nothing major but still how? Nothing makes sense other than God saying that I need to stop.

Which leads me to my running progress as guess where I was heading when I hit the garage, the gym to run. I’m on day 42 of my move goals but have missed 3-4 days of doing any exercise and have done some quick yoga sessions at night just to get whatever I need for mins in. I’ve had so much on my plate that I’ve had no time to get in much running. Although my timing was not bad the last 2 times that I went.

The last topic on my mind that I’ve been wanting to blog on is swearing and how it is so widely accepted now. When I was a kid, you would have gotten smacked or mouth washed out for saying these things. And taking the Lord’s name in vain was so not accepted. Now we have cute emojis or sayings to cover it up but we use it in vain all the time. It was brought up in my Bible Study recently and it really got me thinking. Why have we wandered so far from the rules of the Bible or even common decency?

Now back to the topic of the unknown. This does all relate on some level. I’ve been struggling a lot of what are my next steps and am I doing enough. I know I’m not doing a job that is my calling and I know it is hard to start in that field. Plus until last night I really didn’t know what that was. Sure I assumed based on the things that I love to do but didn’t know for sure.

In my questions about doing enough, I decided to take this Poverty Cure class. Best thing that I have done for myself in a while (besides running). There is a lot of discussion about what is those living in poverty’s God given talent and how can they use it. Well this brings us to the point of how can we help. But in that if you don’t know yours, how can you help? So many questions. Well I took 3 tests last night to get answers on this. Every one of them points to teaching. 1 pointed to prophesy and another to Evangelism. 2 said writing was high for me, along with knowledge. Faith was definitely strong, as well.

So where does that bring me? Teaching is something I love and wanted to do for a while. Writing, well you know that I love that or you wouldn’t be reading this. I think it is a combination of both with Christ at the center. Now, how to get into this, is the question. Oh and how do I do this all in a way that I listen to the message to slow down (which was one that was given to me also when Hermione was missing)?

So I will be finishing out some real estate transaction and closing that door finally, which is amazing to me as I knew God wanted me to open it. But there is a big part of me that believes that it was to do the transactions that I have up to now and the one I’m working on.

I’ve had this dream of opening a youth center of sorts. I would have my bakery out of it (something that I’ve wanted for years is to bake). But it would be, I don’t know an arcade style, maybe roller skating, yoga studio, bible study type of thing. No clue. I don’t know honestly. A safe place is all I know that I could teach out of and write in my spare time. I thought about the bowling ally that has now been for sale for a couple of years but I still don’t know what that looks like.

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