Life is Interesting

I’ve had a pretty hard life. Some people tell me they don’t know how I do it and honestly many days, I don’t either. I see so many people struggle and have it much worse than me. I praise God for what I do have. I’ve been broken and sometimes wonder when I will break again. I been bullied and scared to the point of I was not sure what tomorrow would bring. I prayed through these times that God would pull me through.

I know that each one of these struggles made me who I am today. Sure I have broken moments but I am so incredibly strong. My heart is so full of love and compassion that I can hardly contain it. I have forgiven many that maybe didn’t deserve forgiveness. I haven’t lost my temper when many would have gone off the deep end at someone. I am strategic in my every word and action. I know these things have made me that way but I am so proud of who I am, who I have become.

I look forward to the person I will continue to grow into. Today has been an interesting day. The first moment that I looked at my phone, I had a message from someone I went to school with. They asked me for my forgiveness on they way they treated me in school. The thing is, I did a long time ago. I learned a long time ago it is better to forgive than to hold on to anger. We had become friends on facebook a while back and I’ve seen who he has grown into. The truth is that for this particular person, I know they were mean to me but not like others so I really couldn’t tell you anything that stuck out. Name calling, maybe blocking me from going somewhere but nothing in comparison to others.

I know that is sad to say. I have forgiven the others as well. There is always the one that I have forgiven and prayed about. Maybe one day, I will finish my book and I’ll actually tell the story but until then you may get a glimpse of this person here and there. Life is funny, you can take those hard times and really live in them. Let them take you down and not recover. OR You can let them drive you to do something. I do believe this is why I am an achiever. I want to prove that I am smarter and can do anything. But I also know that this has made me a person that can handle things in a way that many can’t.

I will always put my trust and faith in the Lord. I am the woman that when the feet hit the floor, the devil says oh crap she’s up. I encourage you to learn what makes you stronger, focus your energy on doing well at it, and show the world you are beautiful from the inside out. Let the Lord shine through you. This is why I write and share.

Much love to you all!

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David was Bullied & a Sinner

We all know Jesus was bullied relentlessly. I talked about his ultimate bullying session in a blog I did earlier. So you may be asking who is David, if you have never gone to Church or maybe its been a while. David is in Jesus’ ancestry. Even if you have never read the Bible, you may have heard the story of David and Goliath. A synopsis: Goliath was a Giant that not one soldier could take down but David, a small, young boy, who’s belief in God was so strong, was able to defeat him.

David went on to be a King (a very sinful one but yet a strong, strong believer). In Psalm 41, we learn a lot about how David felt though:

Blessed are those who have regard for the weak;
    the Lord delivers them in times of trouble.
The Lord protects and preserves them—
    they are counted among the blessed in the land—
    he does not give them over to the desire of their foes.
The Lord sustains them on their sickbed
    and restores them from their bed of illness.

That is great- We all know that God is for us, if we have regard for the weak. But here is what I find interesting and maybe you will too, if you ever have felt bullied:

I said, “Have mercy on me, Lord;
    heal me, for I have sinned against you.”
My enemies say of me in malice,
    “When will he die and his name perish?”
When one of them comes to see me,
    he speaks falsely, while his heart gathers slander;
    then he goes out and spreads it around.

All my enemies whisper together against me;
    they imagine the worst for me, saying,
“A vile disease has afflicted him;
    he will never get up from the place where he lies.”
Even my close friend,
    someone I trusted,
one who shared my bread,
    has turned[b] against me.

Have you ever turned to God when you felt so alone? When you felt like your enemies are doing nothing but attacking you- spreading vicious rumors that hurt so bad? Let’s read on to how David reacted in his faith:

10 But may you have mercy on me, Lord;
    raise me up, that I may repay them.
11 I know that you are pleased with me,
    for my enemy does not triumph over me.
12 Because of my integrity you uphold me
    and set me in your presence forever.

13 Praise be to the Lord, the God of Israel,
    from everlasting to everlasting.
Amen and Amen.

Wow, so even though he is feeling alone and all are against him, he trusts in the Lord completely knowing that; even though he is a sinner, he is a good man that follows the Lord completely and trusts that He will always be there for him. Amazing, isn’t it? To have the inner strength and knowledge?

Did you know that you can have that same strength? If you feel alone, you are not. If you have been bullied, you are stronger than that situation. You are love and kindness. If it has turned you bitter, you can turn it around and find the way to be an advocate, a leader.  You are stronger than you know. Feel that strength within you to keep going and to do good.

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Jesus was bullied 

Probably in the worst way possible
Did you know that there and 10s of thousands Christians persecuted around the world yearly? Yes, people today will be put to death for believing. Would you be able to stand up in such a way?

Jesus was plotted against like so many of us feel when we are bullied. In Matthew we see the Pharisees plot on how they might kill Jesus.

13 Then he said to the man, “Stretch out your hand.” So he stretched it out and it was completely restored, just as sound as the other. 14 But the Pharisees went out and plotted how they might kill Jesus.

Jesus knew what was coming. He knew if he continued that a certain beating- suffering was coming. One that was so cruel and intentional, that we can not even begin to imagine the torment. But Jesus continued to heal and spread the word. He remained strong where many of us would crumble, run, hide, or get angry. It amazes me the torment that he dealt with to save us.

In Matthew 27 we read about this torture:

28 They stripped him and put a scarlet robe on him, 29 and then twisted together a crown of thorns and set it on his head. They put a staff in his right hand. Then they knelt in front of him and mocked him. “Hail, king of the Jews!” they said. 30 They spit on him, and took the staff and struck him on the head again and again. 31 After they had mocked him, they took off the robe and put his own clothes on him.

Can you imagine the beating? I know what it was like to be plotted against, to be pulled aside, and to be hit. I know there are scars that cut deeper- that one day, I will talk about. But to take on the sin for all is a pain that I cannot imagine. So what should we do it about it? Be better than all the pain and suffering. Jesus was calm, he was caring, he helped others and reaped so many other rewards for this.

Mark 16 says:

15 He said to them, “Go into all the world and preach the gospel to all creation. 16 Whoever believes and is baptized will be saved, but whoever does not believe will be condemned. 17 And these signs will accompany those who believe: In my name they will drive out demons;

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The Drive-Through Difference 

Have you ever had your food or drink paid for in the drive through? It is pretty amazing isn’t it?

For me, I feel God talking to me in that moment. The first time, boy was I in a mood.  It was early morning and everything seemed to be going wrong that morning. My oldest she needed a ride to work and begged me to run to Caribou. So I did. She was going to pay for a coffee for me and I was still cranky. Suddenly we get to the window and they were like the guy in front of you paid for your drinks. My mouth dropped. I have thought about doing this so many times but I always forget when I go to pay.

Then, this past Saturday. My husband and I were in a hurry, running behind, as usual on the weekend. I had a lot of houses to show this day and lucky the first couple were for us so we were able to get caught up. I was stressing so much about the day and the decision that we were making. I will admit when I’m stressed like that I’m a bit snappy. Again, pull up to the window and they were like we will get those drinks out for you the couple in front of you paid for them.

Wow, I stopped dead in my tracks. That power when God says stop is truly amazing. Immediately, I went to him and said I’m sorry Lord, I know need to slow down and just trust you. This is an area, like so many others, that I am struggling in. We overbook ourselves, work two jobs, run here and there for the kids, for our parents, for everyone around us and many times, we forget to take a moment to praise Him, to listen to Him, to run for Him.

Humble yourselves before the Lord, and he will lift you up in honor. James 4:10

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Forgiveness and Friendship

Okay doing some more thinking today. So I was thinking who do we forgive? It says in the Bible to forgive the people you are angry with so that your Father in heaven will also forgive your sins. So what does that mean for us. Sure it is easy to say forgive but can you do it? Can you forgive the crazy drunk that killed a baby? Can you forgive the person who sexually abused you? Can you forgive the mass-murder that killed thousands? We are told that we have to forgive, as Jesus did, no matter what.

So now what about are friends? Do you stay loyal no matter what they have done? Should you be friends with only Christians, as to not fall astray? The Lord hates evil thoughts but is pleased with kind words. Proverbs 15:26. John stayed by Jesus’ side at the cross, although consorting with this man was a crime. Would you stick up for your friends no matter what or would you have a limit? I know I’ve lost many friendships along the way because of different beliefs. I do forgive, even the tough situations. I pray for people who are evil to find the light and do Godly things.

I leave you with this:
Love each other deeply, because love will cause many sins to be forgiven. Open your homes to each other, without complaining. Each of you has received a gift to use to serve others. Be good servants of God’s various gifts of grace. 1 Peter 4:8-10

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What I learned from My Mom

My mom was amazing. Many saw her as mentally inept but she was the kindest person that you could ever meet. I didn’t realize how Jesus-like that my mom was until after she passed away. She fed everyone and I mean everyone. If you stepped foot into our house, you were eating. She would jump to her feet and get busy making something, if she didn’t already have a cake or pie sitting around waiting for you. Yes, you the stranger that she knew would visit eventually.

She would put on a pot of coffee right away because she would need to offer you a cup. My mom sincerely cared for everyone. She would always be making something to bring to every Church event. If you made her mad (trust me that took talent), she would forgive you quickly even looking pass her stubborn German ways.

It’s funny because she was stubborn. Many don’t put stubborn and kind together in the same sentence but my mom was definitely both. You would not get her to change her mind. If she believed it, it was true and no one was going to prove her different. She wouldn’t argue with you necessarily. But she knew what she believed, she’d state it then let you go on and on about what you believed and then maybe she would state it again.

So somethings that I see of her in me. I’m stubborn and not always in a good way though. But if I believe in something that will shine out more than anything out there. You will know what I believe. I am kind to everyone I meet. I don’t jump up to feed you, although if I have been busy baking, you can bet that you will be taking something home with you. I’m more like Mary when it comes to guests. I want to make sure that you are comfortable and that I enjoy your presence. Which trust me, my mom did enjoy when you visited too and would take some time to visit once the coffee and cake was in front of you. (she would prepare whole meals too, if you haven’t “eaten” anything)

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Do You Remember?

Do you remember when we were kids and we said I’m never going to grow up? Even when I’m an adult, I’m still not going to be strict, mean, or crabby like my parents. I’m going to be positive, loving, caring, looking forward to the next day. And then…….. You’re an adult and now the bills come, then you are a spouse, and guess what more bills..…. then you are a parent and your kids gets into everything and wants to do everything (just like that wonderful spirit that we once had) and of course our stress level just has increased so much with worry.

We worry about having a safe home, enough money to pay the bills, that everywhere our kids go is safe. We forgot that promise to just live and love and laugh. I was just thinking this because today’s reading was on optimism and it talked about how when we were kids, we were excited for everyday to come, that we left the fears and worries in our “Father’s Hands”. Remember trusting your parents to just take care of it all?????

We should all be doing this today too. We have an awesome Father who is in charge of it all and we so many times try to take that away from him. But just imagine our life if we let God take control and we could be excited for everyday and just love, laugh, and LIVE in our Father’s footsteps….. just a thought

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New Beginnings

Every year, you hear it- this year IS going to be better. I am going to do this and that to make it better. I’m tired of the old and I want all new. Change needs to happen and here we are on a new year so that is our excuse to make it better today. So why was yesterday, a week ago or a month ago not the best day?

Well, it is a state of mind for sure. When we hear New Year, we instantly think new beginnings because of a new time frame. Our family devotional talked about New and what it means to people, today. God states that he will make us/ things new. Have you ever thought about that statement? It doesn’t say we need new things and he’ll give them to us. It says he will take and refresh what is already there.

Well, back to this new year. I have been doing a lot of thinking as the close of 2016 has been approaching, especially over the last week. At first my thoughts were similar to so many others (seems a lot of us hated 2016 because it didn’t seem to get better). But I ready a post that I did last year coming into the new year.

It had read that I was looking forward to 2016 because when I started 2015, I was determined to make it a better year fully knowing that I was going to lose my mom soon. Then 2015 sucked, like 2014 and 2013. hmmm see a pattern. Wow, new year does not mean an instant new life. That somehow the 5 deaths you experienced in one year, plus the diagnosis of diabetes for your child, then to lose your mom, and etc…. was suddenly going to go away, you will not have a new chapter that is completely fresh and new and your luck will just change.

Okay, that is sounding grim. I don’t mean to sound harsh but I came to the conclusion by reading this status that I have been focused on the wrong things. Sure, the years have been tough and maybe harder than many have to endure in a lifetime but I am stronger than anyone can ever know. I have superhero abilities, okay so supermom abilities since my beautiful girl’s life changed. I sense a change in her that she many times questions me on. I have worked with many kids helping them with their experiences with God and learning to maneuver though a tough age. I have helped friends with verses that helped me because I searched for answers myself when feeling like I had nothing. I may have felted that these last few years have been so filled with hurt and an endless cycle of keeping my guard up but in the end when truly looking back, I have become a new person because of this experience. And truly each year has brought a difference that I did not ask for or expect but one I would not change. So, yes we are upon another new year but I look forward to this one and all it’s challenges because in the end, I know that I will stay strong in my faith and God will show me his way through it all.

I wish each and everyone of you reading this a very blessed new year.


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Self Worth

This is a tough one. How much do we value ourselves? Do we put ourselves on a pedestal or are we hiding under it because we don’t want the world to see us as the failure that we think we are? In reading Max Lucado’s God’s Promises for you book I came across this one and wow did it spark some thought .

People should think of us as servants of Christ, the ones God has trusted with his secrets. Now in this way those who are trusted with something valuable must show they are worthy of that trust. As for myself, I do not care if I am judged by you or by any human court. I do not even judge myself… The Lord is the One who judges me. 1 Corinthians 4:1-4

Wow for me to not judge myself, what a concept.  You know as people I think we are our own worst judge.  We are consistently thinking about how we could have done better and beating ourselves up for it.  We all try our hardest not to judge others but we do not try not to judge ourselves… It’s tough not to think, I could have done better with this or that. I won’t do well anyway so why even try.

Do not let anyone treat you as if you are unimportant because you are young. Instead, be an example to the believers with your words, your actions, your love, your faith, and your pure life. 1 Timothy 4:12
Wish I would have read when I was young… But even then, I probably would not have understood it’s meaning but through study and meditation on it, I probably could have learned more and made changes earlier.

You know so many times, I think many of us think that the Bible was written before my time and it is so outdated with information. There is nothing that will relate to me or my time so why read it. But in reading these verses, it can relate to us in this time frame. There are so many time that I read a verse and I feel the author wrote it just for me.  I hear God’s voice telling me exactly what is being read and I know that the Bible is no where near outdated no matter what century we are in.

Here is what Max’s notes say on the subject:
“He has made perfect forever those who are being made holy”…
Underline the word perfect. Note that the word is not better. Not improving. Not on the upswing. God doesn’t improve; he perfects. He doesn’t enhance; he completes….
Now I realize that there’s a sense in which we’re imperfect. We still error. We still stumble. We still do exactly what we don’t what to do. And that part of us is according to the verse, “being made holy.”
But when it comes to our position before God, we’re perfect. When he sees each of us, he sees one who has been made perfect through the One who is perfect — Jesus Christ.

Wow so powerful, isn’t it. We are being made perfect not that we are perfect or improving. Changes that whole thought process, doesn’t it? So what to do with this.  Start a list of the good things about you and review them frequently. When something comes up that you want to try- go for it and remember your value. If you don’t do well or get it this time, there is the next time and you just got the opportunity to learn so much more than you knew before!


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Man and Wife

About a week ago I was asked by my daughter why in the Bible does it say that the man is the head of the house. She went on saying she wants to be the leader. Wow, what a tough question to answer, right?

Well I let her know that marriage is a give and take. That the husband must lead but that does not mean that you are not involved. I told her to look up Proverbs 31 as I believe this is the best verse to help us understand marriage. It all starts at verse 10

11 Her husband can trust her and she will enrich his life

16 She goes to inspect a field and buys it; with her earning she plants a vineyard

I want to comment on this- no where does it say, she goes to her husband and asks for permission and she has earnings.

17 She is energetic and strong, a hard worker.

23 Her husband is well known at the city gates, where he sits with the other civic leaders

25 She is clothed with strength and dignity, and she laughs without fear of the future.

28 Her children stand and bless her. Her husband praises her. (NLT)

Read the whole thing down to verse 31, as you will see all the value of the woman in this verse but you will also see that the husband is a leader. This does not mean the wife is submissive but that he is strong with the power of God behind him and the decisions he makes is noteworthy.


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