I am not ashamed

I remember the news of the Columbine Shooting well. I sat there and watched the unfolding of the event and just couldn’t believe it. As I watched this movie, I remembered how much I forgot about the events of that day.

I remember being:

  • 20 years old- not that much older than those high schoolers.
  • Pregnant with my second child
  • Very Naive
  • And the 13 tears- Oh how I forgot this but now I remember

I remember how I thought, what is this world I am bring children into. I have thought that I couple other times in life- when the towers went down and not the exact question now but now is what kind of world will my children bring kids into.

What was ironic is today a Church in TX was under fire. Someone went into the Church and started shooting. It was not that long ago that the Vegas Strip Shooting occurred. I don’t think the shock of it ever goes away but it is becoming way to common to see these shootings and that is just sad.

It makes you question so much but also it brings on fear to many. In the movie, we see this young lady who was the first to be shot, she was in a constant battle with today’s world and following her beliefs. I feel so many of us feel this battle. I know I do. Here is the thing- NOW is NOT the time to be afraid- it is the time to be strong in faith.

Now is the time to be like Rachel and not be afraid to stand your ground and walk your faith. It is amazing how people will see that light in you and will follow. They may be resistant but who are you kidding, you know you have been too- maybe in a different way but we all are scared on some level. BUT it is amazing what a difference you will see when you let that light shine bright. And the thing is, when someone tells you how bright you shine, you won’t even think you are at that time. You are just doing what comes natural and it will throw you off- possibly even make you blush. But it is an amazing feel to know that God lives in you through the Holy Spirit and that light shines bright when you let it out.

 

Galatians 2: 20- My old self has been crucified with Christ. It is no longer I who live but Christ lives in me. So I live in this earthly body by trusting in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.

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The Ten Commandments

Why does it feel so hard in today’s world to follow these. I feel like the last 5 are easy- the first 5 are the hardest. For some, I know it will be different. The last ones- okay do not murder- easy enough, I have no desire to do this and it’s the law. Don’t steal- no need for this either- now I will admit sometimes I am faced with that dilemma of the checkout clerk forgetting to scan something (the water on the bottom of the cart right before their shift is over and they are trying to hurry) and do I go back into the store after unpacking the cart in the car to pay or not. It is laziness not to and technically stealing. Or lying- which is the next one. This one can be tough at time and what about omitting the truth- is that a lie? So I do struggle a bit with that piece of it- does everyone need to know everything? I think not but who am I to judge- pray on it and whatever the Holy Spirit tells you is the answer. Okay and the last one can be tricky too but not in the way that I think it was intended but maybe I am wrong. So do not want your neighbors things. So I don’t want their stuff literally but they may have a deck that I could see looking great on my house so I may work hard to earn and buy it. But I would never want something to the point of stealing it or anything or that sorts, which is they way that I see this commandment being.

Now on to what I see are the tougher ones. Honor God- okay seems easy but here’s the thing, I don’t put him first in everything I do. I make my own decisions without asking God first if it is right and often times, I find myself hating whatever I thought was good at the time. Do not take the Lord’s name in vain- wow how this one has became a regular thing to do in our society. It is tough when in anger or frustration not to call out God D… it or whatever way you use it – God Bless America is one I used to hear out of one person’s mouth. Do not make idols- now I do not take gold and make it into something to worship but we all do this with famous people or even with something as simple as our home. We put a lot of energy into whatever the item is (sports, money, concert, TVs, yardwork- cleaning) and take away our time with God. These things take His place so they do become idols in that way.

The Sabbath- this is one I’ve been studying greatly as of recently as I will be leading a Bible study in it in just a couple weeks. How hard is it to rest???? Did you know that margin is needed in our lives? We, as women blame Eve for taking the apple and making us miserable. But truth be told, we can’t handle margin either. God made a margin by saying they could not touch the tree, just as He has set the Sabbath aside for us. When is the last time you rested with the Lord?

 

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Inspiration Comes from Anywhere

This morning has been an interesting morning to say the least. God is so powerful that he like to let you know what He wants from you and it is usually a pretty Bold (I hate the word sign) vision. This is the first Monday of the new month. Every month, I write my goals for Plexus in my planner, my affirmations for the month, maybe a Bible verse and so on. Every week, I do a Bible verse to start my week and then try to plan out the entire week to make sure that I’m active in my journey. I try to remember the time of rest, which as you know it is hard and I still need to finish that study.

In discussions with my husband this weekend, I set myself up for some lofty goals. I talked to him about how I would like to use my real estate business to pay off our second mortgage by the end of the year and if I do that I go full time in that and become a yoga instructor. Well, of course, I would write too. So this morning, I started it in the Bible which I try to do every day. I read all about Naomi, Ruth, and Orpah. Then I went on to read whatever verse was on the page and on to my verse of the day in my phone. It’s funny how it all related. See I was reading the profiles of the ladies after reading the book of Ruth a few days ago.

The page next to Ruth ended up talking about her son, who is the grandfather of David, who wrote many of the Psalms, which is where I ended with my inspiration verse. I then, went to my monthly goals, visions, affirmations and as I was going I felt the Lord giving me these things freely. Telling me what I need to do. It is so scary. I left this blog post open last night after seeing a post on fb from her mom.

So while I was writing freely, I started thinking about the books I started and the things that I was doing now. An idea came to me for a book that has been in the works my whole life. I mean total excitement in this book that I knew I needed to write but struggled with it. I needed to get on my computer immediately and make sure I transfer my books into word out of the app I was using (just didn’t organize well) and make sure to get my idea down.

This blog was there, so I minimized it so I could quickly work on the moving of the books, yes I have 4 or 5 that I’ve started. Once I was done, I went to read it. It is about a young lady who has found herself choosing safe instead of what God calls her to do and is making a change. Beautifully written but it spoke to me on my decision for my path. But it’s funny how it relates to my Bible study of the morning. See, Orpah took the path of least resistance, we don’t know much of her story but we know Ruth, who remained faithful- had the best story. As she was a great-grandmother to Christ. She did not do what was easy but what was right and what God called her to do. She worked hard and reaped so many rewards for that faithfulness. It is amazing how God will totally work your morning, day, or weeks to show you what you need to do.

My inspiration verse:  Psalm 5:11-12 (NIV)

11 But let all who take refuge in you be glad;
    let them ever sing for joy.
Spread your protection over them,
    that those who love your name may rejoice in you.

12 Surely, Lord, you bless the righteous;
    you surround them with your favor as with a shield.

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A Sunday School Lesson

I teach 2nd grade Sunday school, which is a complete joy, even though 12 eight year-olds can be rough. Yesterday, I got to learn the lesson. There is this sweet, very energetic girl in my class. She is a girl that I have thought about before as she seems to be “left out”. The other girls tolerate her but also seem to not make a point to sit by her. I noticed this a while back but since I didn’t really know, I let it go.  She is the sweetest girl to them- when one comes in late, she’ll say, “yay, so and so is here” or like yesterday, “I get to sit by so and so, this is exciting since it’s been so long”.

So this brings me to yesterday. This girl was very energetic, as usual. She was moving things around, interrupting others, and just loud. So when she was trying to move something or fiddle, I put my hand on top of hers to get her to stop. She turned it into the game where you try to get your hand on top. So we played that for a while and had a small conversation while still keeping the lesson going. She said to me that my skin was so fair compared to hers (yes, this is very true, as I am very pale).

I explained how I have Swedish in my background and she replied with how she has a very little Native American in hers. I said that was the same as my dad, who also has a very little French in him. I said how he was much darker than me, like her. I told her I take after my mom, who was also very pale. She than said that she hopes that she doesn’t take after her mom. I asked her why and her reply was that she was f a t. It did take me a second to figure out what she meant (kind of cute spelling it out- like us parents tend to do when we don’t want super young kids to understand us).

I turned to her and said you know that can play into health, a medical type condition. She, then, said to me that they think her mom might have diabetes.  I told her that I have a daughter with diabetes and she looked shocked. I said there are different kinds and this is not something that you can help because it is something in the body. I told her how K has to take up to 5 shots a day because of hers and her mouth dropped. She wanted to meet her.

Oh how I wish I had the time to really talk to her. After, we huddled for a game and she wanted to be close to me. She needed contact- she didn’t mind the hand game because she needed that. After all this, I just felt like she puts on this tough act because she is craving the attention. She talks all the time, interrupts all the time, is very distracting to the class- you know the kid that I’m talking about if you ever been in a classroom.

Have you ever stopped to think about this kid? The longer that I work with the kids in the Church, the more I realize that this is their safe place. They want to thrive. There is no judgement. I remember volunteering when my kids were little in there 2nd grade math class. There was this boy that was like this and I remember the teacher telling me that it is sad because the parents of this boy did not care. She or the school would call them and they would not do anything about his behavior. They didn’t come to anything or participate at all. So in a way the school was raising this kid. This is sad.

Back to Sunday school; I’ve seen kids who are so shy, open up and really participate. They have so much fun. They just want to feel a part of something and this is somewhere that they can go to learn and know that they are cared about.  By now, you are probably wondering how I was able to have so much side conversation. I co-teach and this was my week off. So I sit with the kids and “learn” with them. I participate and help to keep those who are a bit more energetic to keep peace. It is an awesome experience to be on both ends of the teaching and learning.

I love my journey in giving back.

Matthew 28:19-20:
Go therefore and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father and of the Son and of the Holy Spirit, teaching them to observe all that I have commanded you. And behold, I am with you always, to the end of the age.”

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Life is Interesting

I’ve had a pretty hard life. Some people tell me they don’t know how I do it and honestly many days, I don’t either. I see so many people struggle and have it much worse than me. I praise God for what I do have. I’ve been broken and sometimes wonder when I will break again. I been bullied and scared to the point of I was not sure what tomorrow would bring. I prayed through these times that God would pull me through.

I know that each one of these struggles made me who I am today. Sure I have broken moments but I am so incredibly strong. My heart is so full of love and compassion that I can hardly contain it. I have forgiven many that maybe didn’t deserve forgiveness. I haven’t lost my temper when many would have gone off the deep end at someone. I am strategic in my every word and action. I know these things have made me that way but I am so proud of who I am, who I have become.

I look forward to the person I will continue to grow into. Today has been an interesting day. The first moment that I looked at my phone, I had a message from someone I went to school with. They asked me for my forgiveness on they way they treated me in school. The thing is, I did a long time ago. I learned a long time ago it is better to forgive than to hold on to anger. We had become friends on facebook a while back and I’ve seen who he has grown into. The truth is that for this particular person, I know they were mean to me but not like others so I really couldn’t tell you anything that stuck out. Name calling, maybe blocking me from going somewhere but nothing in comparison to others.

I know that is sad to say. I have forgiven the others as well. There is always the one that I have forgiven and prayed about. Maybe one day, I will finish my book and I’ll actually tell the story but until then you may get a glimpse of this person here and there. Life is funny, you can take those hard times and really live in them. Let them take you down and not recover. OR You can let them drive you to do something. I do believe this is why I am an achiever. I want to prove that I am smarter and can do anything. But I also know that this has made me a person that can handle things in a way that many can’t.

I will always put my trust and faith in the Lord. I am the woman that when the feet hit the floor, the devil says oh crap she’s up. I encourage you to learn what makes you stronger, focus your energy on doing well at it, and show the world you are beautiful from the inside out. Let the Lord shine through you. This is why I write and share.

Much love to you all!

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David was Bullied & a Sinner

We all know Jesus was bullied relentlessly. I talked about his ultimate bullying session in a blog I did earlier. So you may be asking who is David, if you have never gone to Church or maybe its been a while. David is in Jesus’ ancestry. Even if you have never read the Bible, you may have heard the story of David and Goliath. A synopsis: Goliath was a Giant that not one soldier could take down but David, a small, young boy, who’s belief in God was so strong, was able to defeat him.

David went on to be a King (a very sinful one but yet a strong, strong believer). In Psalm 41, we learn a lot about how David felt though:

Blessed are those who have regard for the weak;
    the Lord delivers them in times of trouble.
The Lord protects and preserves them—
    they are counted among the blessed in the land—
    he does not give them over to the desire of their foes.
The Lord sustains them on their sickbed
    and restores them from their bed of illness.

That is great- We all know that God is for us, if we have regard for the weak. But here is what I find interesting and maybe you will too, if you ever have felt bullied:

I said, “Have mercy on me, Lord;
    heal me, for I have sinned against you.”
My enemies say of me in malice,
    “When will he die and his name perish?”
When one of them comes to see me,
    he speaks falsely, while his heart gathers slander;
    then he goes out and spreads it around.

All my enemies whisper together against me;
    they imagine the worst for me, saying,
“A vile disease has afflicted him;
    he will never get up from the place where he lies.”
Even my close friend,
    someone I trusted,
one who shared my bread,
    has turned[b] against me.

Have you ever turned to God when you felt so alone? When you felt like your enemies are doing nothing but attacking you- spreading vicious rumors that hurt so bad? Let’s read on to how David reacted in his faith:

10 But may you have mercy on me, Lord;
    raise me up, that I may repay them.
11 I know that you are pleased with me,
    for my enemy does not triumph over me.
12 Because of my integrity you uphold me
    and set me in your presence forever.

13 Praise be to the Lord, the God of Israel,
    from everlasting to everlasting.
Amen and Amen.

Wow, so even though he is feeling alone and all are against him, he trusts in the Lord completely knowing that; even though he is a sinner, he is a good man that follows the Lord completely and trusts that He will always be there for him. Amazing, isn’t it? To have the inner strength and knowledge?

Did you know that you can have that same strength? If you feel alone, you are not. If you have been bullied, you are stronger than that situation. You are love and kindness. If it has turned you bitter, you can turn it around and find the way to be an advocate, a leader.  You are stronger than you know. Feel that strength within you to keep going and to do good.

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Jesus was bullied 

Probably in the worst way possible
Did you know that there and 10s of thousands Christians persecuted around the world yearly? Yes, people today will be put to death for believing. Would you be able to stand up in such a way?

Jesus was plotted against like so many of us feel when we are bullied. In Matthew we see the Pharisees plot on how they might kill Jesus.

13 Then he said to the man, “Stretch out your hand.” So he stretched it out and it was completely restored, just as sound as the other. 14 But the Pharisees went out and plotted how they might kill Jesus.

Jesus knew what was coming. He knew if he continued that a certain beating- suffering was coming. One that was so cruel and intentional, that we can not even begin to imagine the torment. But Jesus continued to heal and spread the word. He remained strong where many of us would crumble, run, hide, or get angry. It amazes me the torment that he dealt with to save us.

In Matthew 27 we read about this torture:

28 They stripped him and put a scarlet robe on him, 29 and then twisted together a crown of thorns and set it on his head. They put a staff in his right hand. Then they knelt in front of him and mocked him. “Hail, king of the Jews!” they said. 30 They spit on him, and took the staff and struck him on the head again and again. 31 After they had mocked him, they took off the robe and put his own clothes on him.

Can you imagine the beating? I know what it was like to be plotted against, to be pulled aside, and to be hit. I know there are scars that cut deeper- that one day, I will talk about. But to take on the sin for all is a pain that I cannot imagine. So what should we do it about it? Be better than all the pain and suffering. Jesus was calm, he was caring, he helped others and reaped so many other rewards for this.

Mark 16 says:

15 He said to them, “Go into all the world and preach the gospel to all creation. 16 Whoever believes and is baptized will be saved, but whoever does not believe will be condemned. 17 And these signs will accompany those who believe: In my name they will drive out demons;

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The Drive-Through Difference 

Have you ever had your food or drink paid for in the drive through? It is pretty amazing isn’t it?

For me, I feel God talking to me in that moment. The first time, boy was I in a mood.  It was early morning and everything seemed to be going wrong that morning. My oldest she needed a ride to work and begged me to run to Caribou. So I did. She was going to pay for a coffee for me and I was still cranky. Suddenly we get to the window and they were like the guy in front of you paid for your drinks. My mouth dropped. I have thought about doing this so many times but I always forget when I go to pay.

Then, this past Saturday. My husband and I were in a hurry, running behind, as usual on the weekend. I had a lot of houses to show this day and lucky the first couple were for us so we were able to get caught up. I was stressing so much about the day and the decision that we were making. I will admit when I’m stressed like that I’m a bit snappy. Again, pull up to the window and they were like we will get those drinks out for you the couple in front of you paid for them.

Wow, I stopped dead in my tracks. That power when God says stop is truly amazing. Immediately, I went to him and said I’m sorry Lord, I know need to slow down and just trust you. This is an area, like so many others, that I am struggling in. We overbook ourselves, work two jobs, run here and there for the kids, for our parents, for everyone around us and many times, we forget to take a moment to praise Him, to listen to Him, to run for Him.

Humble yourselves before the Lord, and he will lift you up in honor. James 4:10

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Forgiveness and Friendship

Okay doing some more thinking today. So I was thinking who do we forgive? It says in the Bible to forgive the people you are angry with so that your Father in heaven will also forgive your sins. So what does that mean for us. Sure it is easy to say forgive but can you do it? Can you forgive the crazy drunk that killed a baby? Can you forgive the person who sexually abused you? Can you forgive the mass-murder that killed thousands? We are told that we have to forgive, as Jesus did, no matter what.

So now what about are friends? Do you stay loyal no matter what they have done? Should you be friends with only Christians, as to not fall astray? The Lord hates evil thoughts but is pleased with kind words. Proverbs 15:26. John stayed by Jesus’ side at the cross, although consorting with this man was a crime. Would you stick up for your friends no matter what or would you have a limit? I know I’ve lost many friendships along the way because of different beliefs. I do forgive, even the tough situations. I pray for people who are evil to find the light and do Godly things.

I leave you with this:
Love each other deeply, because love will cause many sins to be forgiven. Open your homes to each other, without complaining. Each of you has received a gift to use to serve others. Be good servants of God’s various gifts of grace. 1 Peter 4:8-10

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What I learned from My Mom

My mom was amazing. Many saw her as mentally inept but she was the kindest person that you could ever meet. I didn’t realize how Jesus-like that my mom was until after she passed away. She fed everyone and I mean everyone. If you stepped foot into our house, you were eating. She would jump to her feet and get busy making something, if she didn’t already have a cake or pie sitting around waiting for you. Yes, you the stranger that she knew would visit eventually.

She would put on a pot of coffee right away because she would need to offer you a cup. My mom sincerely cared for everyone. She would always be making something to bring to every Church event. If you made her mad (trust me that took talent), she would forgive you quickly even looking pass her stubborn German ways.

It’s funny because she was stubborn. Many don’t put stubborn and kind together in the same sentence but my mom was definitely both. You would not get her to change her mind. If she believed it, it was true and no one was going to prove her different. She wouldn’t argue with you necessarily. But she knew what she believed, she’d state it then let you go on and on about what you believed and then maybe she would state it again.

So somethings that I see of her in me. I’m stubborn and not always in a good way though. But if I believe in something that will shine out more than anything out there. You will know what I believe. I am kind to everyone I meet. I don’t jump up to feed you, although if I have been busy baking, you can bet that you will be taking something home with you. I’m more like Mary when it comes to guests. I want to make sure that you are comfortable and that I enjoy your presence. Which trust me, my mom did enjoy when you visited too and would take some time to visit once the coffee and cake was in front of you. (she would prepare whole meals too, if you haven’t “eaten” anything)

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