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Hello! I am glad that you have stopped by to learn more about this journey I call life. Have you taken a break today? Have you set limits to yourself and family? Are you ready to talk about some hot discussions or maybe just some fun ones?

Sometimes things will get serious- I had a blog called no more judgement that was lost when the hosting company was switched. I am starting over and you will see a category, as well. That is my dedication to help stop bullying. I hate it and believe we can do so much more than we are.

Other topics you will see are my different paths in business, life, thoughts, reading, and so much more. Please feel free to join in on any conversation. I am so happy to have you here.

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8 miles

All week I’ve been pumping myself up for today’s run. I’ve been running 5 miles on Tuesdays now, I’ve been here before, last week I did 10. Then this morning came. I so did not want to wake up. Waited until last minute. I had this moment of I don’t want to run today. I’m tired. This is where I am so glad I do this with a group, no way I would have done it on my own today. Started running behind. It was foggy out. Started thinking about all the animal possibilities. Forgot about 1 possibility and thank God, I did not think about that one (black bears have been spotted all around cities lately). Get there just as we are going out. started off what felt slow but was a good pace for me. I found that out when I hear my watch going off. It felt like such a hard two miles of getting going though. The fog scared me a bit and then for some reason the geese were noisy.

But it was beautiful. God was sure in full artistry this morning. He had some rays coming through the trees and fog like I’ve never seen but it was truly amazing. Then I started to talk with him. I started thinking about all my troubles and how I keep getting sucked into this negativity that I ever so hate being in. How I just feel so distant lately no matter how hard I try to make my time for Him, how I’ve been faltering. I talked about the children in Africa and asked Him to help me to remember why I am doing this, as well as prayed for the people supporting me and several others in my life. My next 3 miles were amazing. I ran them so well and felt pretty great. Mile 6 was harder. The tiredness took over. I tried to stretch it out and then tried to do my energy treats and water. Sure I felt like I could run again but nothing like I was. The heaviness in the air took over. I was drenched and so very tired. I ran/ walked the last two miles but they felt so hard to do. I finished and I was not in the right headspace again. I stopped for a min to check in but I just couldn’t socialize like normal. The thing is, it does not bother me at all coming in last, it bothered me that I felt like I just get this run together. It felt like 10 miles was easier than 8. I know the humidity this morning really played into it all. But I just had a hard time getting over it this morning.

I love my running. I love inspiring others and I remind myself of this. I remind myself of how far I have come. I mean who thought this fat little girl would ever run 8, let alone 10 or 26.2 miles. Not me! But here I am doing it. I remind myself that I finished. I did it. It wasn’t beating my time from 2 weeks ago but I got out there and did it. 1/2 way through my run, I was told, “I am so thankful for you. You make me feel so good because you help me to remember it’s not about being the fastest”. I love that! This is someone who was afraid to run but I have inspired her with others to just go out there and do what you can do. I need to remember to thank her because really today she is what I needed. This is not easy but I love doing it. And I totally kicked butt the rest of today and will continue to have awesome days that may not feel it at 1st but will totally rock.

I do have to give credit to my teammates for the outdoor pics as I kept wishing I’d take my phone out for pics but was afraid to slow down too much. I love that World Vision has brought us together and love what they are doing for the children in need of clean water and so much more. Find my link and help support me in this journey.

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Where did I go Wrong

I sit her and think this is probably what my parents thought 100 times over when I was growing up. And now today, I find myself asking this same question. When I was a kid, I dreamed that one day I would have a large family of my own. 5 kids to be exact. I would be the cool mom that would play with her kids. The one that her kids would feel comfortable coming to with all their needs. I dream of this large family and all the things we would do. We would go on adventures together and travel.

It’s true that when you start out with a large family, someone has to stay home to take care of them at least until they go to school full time. Then the realities of how expensive a large family sets in and parents need to have a 2 income home to survive unless 1 person can make the income of 2. So then work takes over slowly. You find less and less time for that dream you had and all the time spent on stressing over paying bills, doing well enough at work, and getting the kids to where they need to be. The play time becomes limited to time off and the expectations of the family unit raise.

Now, don’t get me wrong with that. I’ve always had an old-fashioned mentality on chores and children learning them, as well as discipline. But it seems that when it’s no longer a game to get everything cleaned up as quickly as possible and becomes the reality of responsibility, it is no longer the thing anyone wants to do. When the snack times go away and its a free for all, then overeating and sneaking of all kinds of foods happens. And then the fighting enters in the picture. Okay so I’m not saying that when they were younger there was no fighting but I’m saying it was different. Now who has time for that. They don’t, we don’t so it’s all about the rush, rush, rush. Things get forgotten, chores don’t get done, and people get frustrated.

We all have these ideals when it comes to our lives and then we face the challenges that throw us off course and don’t know what to do from there. It is easy when we expect them and can be proactive. It’s so much harder when it comes out of nowhere and hits us square in the face. Last night I got the text that read “I need a break so won’t be coming home for a few days and going to stay at a friends house” Here’s the thing- even though I didn’t have a cell phone, I did this to my parents as a kid. Smack right across the face, here comes reality. Sometimes I’m not sure which is worse, knowing what she is going through and the path she is leading but not being able to help because “she is different” or the fact that I did these exact things to my parents and now know how they felt and just how stupid I really was.

I turn to my Bible and ask for guidance as this will not shake my faith. If I could only help her to find God like I did and help her to see a better way much sooner than I did. Parenting is truly a blessing and I thank God every day for the children he has given me. I am truly blessed.

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Running the Distance

I did everything wrong for yesterday’s run. Not on purpose but without thinking. There are a few things you should always do when venturing out on a long run.

  • Eat good carbs the night before
  • drink lots of water the day before (good practice for every day but day before especially important)
  • get a good night’s sleep

Sure there are many more things to be doing for running purposes but I believe strongly these are the most important. And all 3 messed me up yesterday. So my long group run is normally on a Saturday morning. I get up early and meet my group and run it out so I prepare on Friday for this run and it is all great. Well, this Saturday the rain came in and brought lightning with it. The only time we don’t run is for lightning…

So I planned to run that night with a few people from the group that are near by. Well, I also had volunteered for intersection control for our Marching Band Festival.  I got the corner that is pretty much the last one to be torn down to protect all the people making there way over to the results,as well as our band performing last. This, as well as my daughter needing to get her case out of a locked vehicle caused me to be behind so I didn’t go.

I drank plenty of water but I also sweated out probably just as much standing on that corner. 98 degrees with 50-60% humidity. It was hot! Some kids did pass out on route, safely in the vehicles or pulled to the side of the road and cared for before it got that bad. I didn’t really eat any carbs that day, just by happenstance not really on purpose. And by the time I got settled in bed, it was pretty late. I woke up exhausted, on the late side and didn’t really eat anything before heading out. All mistakes. I hit my 4th mile and the heat just took over. I texted my husband to come get me and didn’t finish my 6 miles.

There was a lot playing in my head at this point. I failed. What if I just can’t do this? The runs only get longer. I know I can run longer than this but this humidity is only going to get worse. I am going to have to figure this out. Run earlier. Go to bed earlier once Em is done with marching bad or maybe figure out some rides for her. Just do it. You can do this. Stop letting the devil in. You protected yourself from injury and sickness which would have made it worse. It is okay. You will tackle this week differently and you can do better. just pay better attention to what you are doing and you will kick butt next time.

So I sign off today, pay attention to your body and what you are preparing yourself to do for each run. Listen to the experts- They know there stuff. And have fun with it, don’t stress.

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It’s not about me

That statement is so loaded for me on many levels. Over the last couple of weeks I’ve realized my running is not about me. At least the marathon training part. The base camp training, I thought it was. Many of runs had the I can’t mantra and what was I thinking starting this. I am an injured person could never run a day before 3 years ago and that start was awful. I’m the slowest in my group and I just don’t know that I can do 26.2 miles. I mean seriously what was I thinking.

Then my first 1/2 was upon me. I was terrified. I went to this meeting a couple days before the race. It was the kick off party for world vision and the speakers talked from their hearts about their why. I was so inspired.  I was going to do this race not for me but the kids- I’m passionate about kids. The 1/2 got downgraded to a 5k, which was a bummer since I was finally siked enough for it.  But it was perfect for my training so I let it go. I had a friend tell me I inspire them and they want to run next year with me.

The next day at yoga, I found out that I was part of the reason someone decided to push themselves farther and do the marathon. I realized that although I’m slow and I’m not skinny, that I’m inspiring others to go farther and do better. This is totally NOT about me.  Last night in Bible Study, there was a verse that we reviewed. And it was another reminder that my job here isn’t to think only about me and I want but how I can help the world. (Think David)

I’m going to sponsor a girl through World Vision to have that constant reminder that this is not about me at all.

I’m going to leave you with this Bible verse today as it has really spoken to me recently:

Jeremiah 6: 16 This is what the Lord say:

Stand by the roadways and look
Ask about the ancient paths:
Which is the way to what is good?
Then take it and find rest for yourselves.
But they protested, “We won’t!”

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I don’t wanna

This was my attitude today. I sat on my staircase going back and forth making every excuse to not run.

I haven’t slept well in a couple of days
It’s a time of day where more people will see me
I can do later this evening- I should just work on the front yard
My legs are sore from working out yesterday

When I had turned my music back off and thought about how many times that I didn’t really run later or make it out there. I stood up and walked outside and just went. The hill is always first thing out of the house. I started out a bit rougher than I normally do. But I kept going. The wind was awful, which normally throws me offbeat. I can’t breathe running like that. But guess what I kept going.

I decided to run to the pond instead of the way I was going to go. When I got there, I ran it twice. My thought was, I knew that I was not going to run as far as I wanted to. So this got me that little bit further. And then I ran an extra block when I got back to my neighborhood. OH and the hill after the pond, it was hard and I had to walk more than I wanted at that time.

But I have to say, I made it where I wanted and what was awesome about it all. When I got home, I checked my miles and they were all even. I’ve never done that! I usually run my first my mile fast, mile 2-3 are usually a little slow and from there even slower. Sometimes I’ll speed it up here and there but I’m never even. Every mile was about the same. Amazing.

So my point is go out there conquer the miles and kick arse doing it. I didn’t run as fast as I would have liked but it was truly awesome what I did accomplish!

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What was I thinking

I seriously think this almost every time I run. I mean if I struggle with this 2 miles, 6 miles or whatever I just did today, how the heck am I going to do the 13.1 in 3 weeks or the marathon. I mean really, 26.2 miles. My God, yup my God. And I say to myself, He is the one that placed it on my heart that day in Church and I know He will be the only one to pull me through.

So how do I keep going? Well it helps that I have to beat myself. I’m not in competition against anyone else (I just don’t want to be last). I’m in competition against myself so today my 2 mile run was better than my Saturday group run, which lets talk about that.

Okay, I really sucked on Saturday. I mean I probably know people who walk faster than I did those 2 miles. Every single person who ran with me was at least 1/8 of a mile a head of me. I just couldn’t run. I don’t know why exactly. I mean probably the fact that my headphones didn’t work right away- duh should have made sure everything connected before starting. So I started really slow, then allergies and the cold got to me while taking off. But here’s one thing that was really awesome about it. I’m going back next week. Sure I was upset that I was so bad but I survived being last and I know I can do better so I will keep going. It is great being part of a group for running. I am thinking about joining a 2nd group that goes out on Tuesdays and that will balance out my week.

Psalm 9:10, “Those who know your name will trust in you, for you, LORD, have never forsaken those who seek you.”

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If I was more like

Do you ever find yourself comparing yourself to another person? If I was more like Henry, I’d be popular. I wish I had the confidence of Olivia. Or I just wish I wasn’t so angry all the time and more like Ginger. Okay so I used some fun names to make a point but I said that this morning watching Olivia Newton John on stage in a video.

Immediately, I told myself that I don’t need to be like that because I am who I want to be. Now, that is hard because we don’t always see our values. The funny thing is at work, I get told this all the time. I have a co-worker who says that I am so good on the phone and she strives to be like me. It always throws me off as I don’t see myself as anything but me. You know?

I’ve always been a bit of a baby whisper and people I know will hand their babies to me knowing full well that I could probably put them to sleep. And when I did daycare, I had a baby who wouldn’t even go to grandma but the first time meeting me came to me without a tear.

My point is we all have our special gifts and we should embrace what we have instead of looking at someone and say I want that. We are special too. The person who tells me I’m great on the phone is the same person that I wish I could be more firey like. But that is what makes us a great team. We each have our strengths and if we were all the same, well then nothing would probably be accomplished.

Have a great day!!

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A common way that we sin

1 Corinthians 8:12- You are sinning against Christ when you sin against other Christians by encouraging them to do something they believe is wrong.

This about this verse for just a minute. Meditate on it and tell me what comes to you. It is important that we all understand that each verse in the Bible speaks to us as different parts of our life in different ways. We do don’t all get the same interpretation as the next person. They will be similar but will mean something different.

God gives us each our own paths and what is His calling for one is not His calling for another. Again, some people may have a similar path- such as a calling to be a Pastor- but they don’t have the same road map at all. That is why we each have our favorites to listen to. One may draw me in more while the other is driving you.

So now to what this verse made me think of today. Stephen Hawkings passed away recently and wow all the judgment on that man for not being a believer. It is not our place to judge him and maybe this is a bad example as according to him, God had no leading in his life. But I still believe God was there. He was a miracle- he was not to live as long as he did and his brain- wow! Okay, so I wish he could have seen God in his life here and maybe he did before he left this earth but we do not know God’s judgement on him so we must not judge. Do not bully someone after they passed.

Okay so now on to what else came to mind while reading this verse for me. Social media really as a whole. News stories with a response section as well. I’ve seen how much these things light up with responses because people strongly don’t believe the same way as another person. Every single one of our presidents are great examples on this. Now I’m not saying we don’t have a right to discussion on the topic but we judge the person’s path while discussing what they are doing. We need to stand up to a change that will affect the greater mass in a negative way- yes. But all the name calling and bullying that goes on with it- is what NEEDS to stop.

Christians get a bad name for doing this. The ones who like to say someone is finally rotting in hell because they didn’t believe- what??? Or that another person is going to hell for living their lifestyle that is definitely not a calling for them. Or they call them names based on some biased opinion. Those who cast the first stones…. We need to stop doing this. Yes God has his set of rules and yes we need to follow them but when it comes to our paths and interrupting scripture, we each have our place and we shall not judge or tempt the other person into doing what God has called them to do. We can only follow our path and share Jesus’s great love with others. Can you imagine being able to walk His path and be as kind and loving as He was when on this earth? It would be so beautiful. Yes, we are sinners and would never be able to be as perfect as He was/is but we can strive every day to live our lives in a way that is pleasing to Him.

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Just write

I have found myself thinking a lot about my next blog lately. Problem is so many ideas and no time to sit in front of the computer. Then the ideas change, whether it is the same general idea that has changed into a new way to write it that might be good but not how I remembered feeling or if it is just completely forgotten and a new idea pops in my mind.

So many ideas on running. I’ve learned so much in this time of no writing. Then the whole shooting in Florida and wow did I think of some powerful ideas/ well thoughts mostly. I mean we keep hearing on the gun control and oh my gosh do people go crazy on this and not hear the full thoughts of each side. Each side has great ideas but no one wants to listen, they just want to fight, which is just as bad as the shooter.

So this blog is just a reminder that if you are thinking it, write it out. It doesn’t have to be in front of a computer but if you get it down on paper then one day it can get out in different ways.

OH and I finally started my thankful journal of the year. Its been hard to keep up with every night, I’m just trying to remember the great things of the day and just be thankful.

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Running for a cause

Okay for the last 2 weeks I have wanted to get in front of a computer to blog but wow does life get in the way. 🙂

So 2 weeks ago, I wanted to tell you how bad not stretching is for you.  As you know, I typically yoga before and after a run and on my “rest” days. Well that 1 week, I just didn’t have the time. Found myself running in more ways than 1 and not having time to stretch much (yoga is more than that but for this week…). Well come Monday after that morning run- oh my was a I sore. I started a new to me app- Nike + Run. But I did not run anything that was much different that week from normal.

I came to realize how important stretching or my yoga really is. I don’t get sore- sore. I get that oh my I worked out sore a bit but not that I can’t move sore when I do my yoga. Funny thing is yoga makes me so much stronger so I can feel that workout sore from that too. I love it! And will not risk that again.

So I mentioned the app- Well I have to tell you how much I love this app- seriously! I have slowed way down which is a bit uncomfortable, especially at first but it’s made me a better runner. I can run for longer times and my sprints are getting much faster. I love it! seriously to the point I am obsessed. lol

So tonight was the big really learning about what I am doing by signing up for this race with world vision. I learned about the cause more. So there are kids that have to walk miles for clean water. They talked particularly about this one girl who is now 13. She has been walking since she was 4- 3 miles to get dirty water every day for her family. She risks so many things in this walk- animal predators and people ones. Scary stuff. I learned that it only took $50 to get her clean water for a lifetime. This is what I am doing raising money for kids like her to get water- no clean water, not the dirty stuff that kills 800 children a day!- for a lifetime. I don’t know how I could have said no- 26.2 miles- I said never. Well here is never and I am going to kick never’s Arse!

If you want to sponsor me-  https://www.teamworldvision.org/participant/106684

Whatever you can do helps- 5 people donating $10 would get that water for one for a lifetime so that is just a start. I want to get water for 200 kids. That is saving the lives of 1/4 who pass away each day from dirty water! Crazy. But there are so many others running with me. One person cannot do it all but together we are a beast and we will tackle it together. Thank you all for your support- love to you!

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