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Hello! I am glad that you have stopped by to learn more about this journey I call life. Have you taken a break today? Have you set limits to yourself and family? Are you ready to talk about some hot discussions or maybe just some fun ones?

Sometimes things will get serious- I had a blog called no more judgement that was lost when the hosting company was switched. I am starting over and you will see a category, as well. That is my dedication to help stop bullying. I hate it and believe we can do so much more than we are.

Other topics you will see are my different paths in business, life, thoughts, reading, and so much more. Please feel free to join in on any conversation. I am so happy to have you here.

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What is enough?

This is a question that I often times find myself struggling with. Am I doing enough, should I help more, can I help more, where do I go to help more or am I doing enough?  The funny thing is I often feel conflicted in answering this question. This question was a part of the Church sermon this morning. The answer is whatever God places on your heart is enough.  Okay, so that I get and many times I think that I am doing enough.

So I leave Church and this question feels answered but at the same time I start to question the things that I want/ am doing. Is it too much, am I going too far. Then my heart again goes to wanting to do more. So back to Church I go. But seriously, I am studying the poverty cure and I did go back to Church. Tonight we looked at Rwanda and wow, I mean I remember Hotel Rwanda was hard to watch but that’s a movie. So seeing this and thinking, this was just a few years ago (yes a bit more than that but in relevance to when we look at history) and where was I? Young, yes and definitely focused on myself. I didn’t even have the thought of kids or my future (well my dreamed future) in mind much.

I was trying to survive the high school jungle. Nothing in comparison so probably wasn’t real to me.  So, I sat there tonight, watching this lady talk about her hiding and survival. She kept saying the Lord’s prayer and stopping on the forgiveness part. I’ve stopped there before myself too. Can you imagine forgiving the person who killed your family, your friends, and then boasted about how many they killed? For me, it has gone to the abuse that I endured. I have forgiven but this never met as much to me as I heard her talk about her hate but knowing that she wanted to be close to the Lord.

She asked him to show her His sight in this because she cannot do it. He revealed to her the story of Jesus saying, “Please forgive them for they do not know what they do”. She realized they were blinded by hate and did not know what they were doing and it opened her eyes to pray for them. They were coming after her still and she was praying for them. We can’t even begin to imagine this. But it was so powerful.

This topic opened up so many more topics about what are we doing here? I know my work is not done. There is so much left in me. Maybe I don’t need to volunteer for everything but I have so much more left to be done. His word is so important and I know I need to share it. We started out in Mark 2 this evening. A story I know well. I remember reading and being told it so many times as a kid. I also remember thinking that I don’t know how this relates to me.

The part I want to share with you comes from the study piece of my Bible.

“The friends of the paralytic show a great love for him and a great faith in Jesus. If T-shirts could be printed for these men, a perfect slogan would be, ‘Actions speak louder than words.’ No obstacle- even a roof- can slow them down. But even greater than their love is their faith. Just as we wouldn’t waste time cracking open a nut if we didn’t have hop of finding “treasure” inside, these men wouldn’t have ripped open a ceiling unless they had believed the treasure of healing for their friend could be found inside. In the end, Jesus provides a healing because he “saw their faith” (Mark 2: 5)- the faith of the friends! The beauty of their role doesn’t start with their muscles; it starts with their hearts. – Women of Faith Study Bible

I think trust and faith can be a hard thing. Can you imagine going through the crowds and seeing them getting worse to get to the Almighty? Then, to make the decision to climb up to the roof with a paralyzed man and cut it open? Most of of probably would have said, “we will try tomorrow, hopefully there will be a lesser crowd”. But they knew He was healer and now was the time to do it. How many opportunities do you think we’ve missed to seize the time? God is all around us giving us strength and faith in what to do but I believe we have our blinders on. Can you imagine what would have happened if Moses walked passed the burning bush? God probably would have given him another opportunity but would this be at a time that the story would have went different? I don’t know.

So I leave you with, keep your eyes open wide, keep your hearts open wider, and let the Holy Spirit take over with discernment so you don’t miss your opportunity.

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Biblical Inspiration this morning

I am on a 24 day streak and before you freak out- It is a movement streak so I am doing yoga or a light activity 2-3 days a week to give my body a break from the grind. It is amazing though- my longest streak ever but I was burnt out a bit this week from working way too hard the week before. I was need inspiration for sure the last couple of days. In fact, Tuesday and Wednesday became more about stretching and yoga than anything.

I listened to my body but was frustrated since I’ve had a hard time wanting to run. This morning I opened my missions book- Poverty Cure- as I have missed a week and had to leave early this week. And this bible verse was blaring at me. (I will put it below)

I felt this inspiration that okay, I am going to do this marathon and prepare for it. So now, is there a book that will help me feel the inspiration and train me at the same time. I found 2 on audible. The second one was the 80/20 run. And wow was this just what I needed. So I found out that I need to really, really pace myself more than I am. Right now I am sooooo scared that in a year, I will be the slowest runner and it will take me so long to finish that I will quit just because I’m bored. So I’ve been pushing my slow runs.

You are suppose to have 2 slower, well paced runs that are more about distance than anything, 1 moderate run and then 1 all out run a week. My 2 slow runs have been moderate so no wonder I was burnt out. I use my 5 day for an alternate intensity activity. Mostly HIIT workouts so far but also will get on the elliptical or bike on these days.

So today, I forced a 5.0 speed on the treadmill- omgosh was that ever so slow. lol But I feel good. It was what it was supposed to be. I will continue to read this book to train myself more but I am always amazed by where reading the Bible takes me on my path- Journey with me!

Hebrews 12:1-2New International Version (NIV)

12 Therefore, since we are surrounded by such a great cloud of witnesses, let us throw off everything that hinders and the sin that so easily entangles. And let us run with perseverance the race marked out for us, fixing our eyes on Jesus, the pioneer and perfecter of faith. For the joy set before him he endured the cross,scorning its shame, and sat down at the right hand of the throne of God.

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Amazing the kindness of strangers

I am in constant awe of the kindness of strangers. Hermione was so skinny and low on protein for being gone so long without food. The vet told us to add eggs and chicken to her diet. One neighbor that I still haven’t met in person dropped off all natural treats that she had for her dog of 11 years that passed away recently.

One of my husband’s co-workers, who had their own dog treat business, drove into work on one of his days that he didn’t have to, just to make sure to bring us 3 bags of his and his wife’s specialty treats. I have to tell you- my dogs would do flips for these treats. They have this all down to a science and the ingredients are amazing. But my dogs act like I am giving them food from the table (which we never do). These treats are packed with vitamins that help with recovery, which we all know that Hermione was/is needing this. So it’s been great seeing her grow. Click here if you want to get your own awesome treats!

I still have people reaching out to see how she is doing and that is truly amazing. So even though we tend to see all the bad in this world, there are so many good kind hearts that are truly amazing. Keep blessing others as you can. We can make a difference in this world.

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I am not ashamed

I remember the news of the Columbine Shooting well. I sat there and watched the unfolding of the event and just couldn’t believe it. As I watched this movie, I remembered how much I forgot about the events of that day.

I remember being:

  • 20 years old- not that much older than those high schoolers.
  • Pregnant with my second child
  • Very Naive
  • And the 13 tears- Oh how I forgot this but now I remember

I remember how I thought, what is this world I am bring children into. I have thought that I couple other times in life- when the towers went down and not the exact question now but now is what kind of world will my children bring kids into.

What was ironic is today a Church in TX was under fire. Someone went into the Church and started shooting. It was not that long ago that the Vegas Strip Shooting occurred. I don’t think the shock of it ever goes away but it is becoming way to common to see these shootings and that is just sad.

It makes you question so much but also it brings on fear to many. In the movie, we see this young lady who was the first to be shot, she was in a constant battle with today’s world and following her beliefs. I feel so many of us feel this battle. I know I do. Here is the thing- NOW is NOT the time to be afraid- it is the time to be strong in faith.

Now is the time to be like Rachel and not be afraid to stand your ground and walk your faith. It is amazing how people will see that light in you and will follow. They may be resistant but who are you kidding, you know you have been too- maybe in a different way but we all are scared on some level. BUT it is amazing what a difference you will see when you let that light shine bright. And the thing is, when someone tells you how bright you shine, you won’t even think you are at that time. You are just doing what comes natural and it will throw you off- possibly even make you blush. But it is an amazing feel to know that God lives in you through the Holy Spirit and that light shines bright when you let it out.

 

Galatians 2: 20- My old self has been crucified with Christ. It is no longer I who live but Christ lives in me. So I live in this earthly body by trusting in the Son of God, who loved me and gave himself for me.

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Miracles Are Amazing

So, I have to tell you that I reached a point on Tuesday night that I was starting to feel like we’ve never find our doggy. She had been gone 12 days and no sightings that we could confirm. Since day 1, I knew God had a plan for me in all of this. I knew I needed to have my eyes wide open and I still believed this and believed He was good & faithful so my thoughts kept going to someone having her. That it was innocent, they just didn’t know better.

So why did I know God wanted me to listen up? I just really felt it all the way through me is the biggest answer but not only that, I kept feeling like I missed something that night. All the things added up and not in the good way so I knew that part didn’t come from the Lord, He only does good.  But it was always weird that my son that has never walked Hermione by himself, that I can remember, decided this was the day he was going to start. He went to grab her harness but it wouldn’t go on right so he decided that she’d be fine in her collar. He took a way on this walk that he normally does not go. The flags that spooked Hermione, spooked her more than usual (I brought her by them the day before and was able to get her through them). That she ran away from him all together since she is so incredibly close to her family. I mean this is a dog that I never have on her leash to go in our garage or in the front yard to go for a ride. She wants to go with us more that she never leaves the yard. So really nothing added up. The way she ran at first, she knew so she could have gotten home but must of ended up in the field and that got her confused. So many things that I couldn’t explain so I knew I needed to listen up.

At first, I thought God was wanting me to tell about the kindness of strangers (and I still do). Hundreds of people reached out to me, shared my post to facebook. I had put it on swap and shops & spread the word through so many sites that night. My posts had over 700-800 shares and add in the comments, it was truly amazing. People messaged me with thoughts and prayers, offering to search for her, and even one person offered their drone to look over anywhere I thought she could be. The problem is she went into hiding and I had no idea where she could be.

This brings us to Wednesday. Still frustrated that its been 13 days and no sightings, I thought about getting this boxer that looks like she came from her litter. My husband said no at first because he still thought she was coming home. I said when she comes, she will have her sister, well on this Wednesday, a new picture came out of the rescue and he was more willing. Something kept eating at me this day. I went to Target after work and as I was driving home, I decided to talk to my mom.

My mom is in Heaven and it had been a while since I had talked to her. I said, “mom, I know its been a while but I need a big favor- she’s been missing for a while now. Can you please talk to Jesus for me? Ask him to fill me with the Holy Spirit so I know what I need to do. I miss her so much and I cannot stand the unknown. Love you mom.”

I went home and K started the food I bought, while I searched on my phone for any sign of her. I kind of just stood there thinking what do I do from here waiting for E to text me to pick her up. K decided she was going with me and we told the hubby to watch the Chili while gone. We were preheating the oven for the breadsticks. I picked up E and we headed to Dollar Tree to pick up only a few things. The person from the retrievers had been texting me on some things that I could do for our dog but I was kind like I feel like I’ve done everything that I can. Then it came over, a text that read- hi i messaged you on facebook already wondering if you’ve found your dog yet? my friend is in sierra and found a boxer.

he said it had a white patch on its chest and looks like the dog on the post.

I started shaking like you wouldn’t believe. I couldn’t believe it, that was my dog in the picture. I said “OMG. that looks like her. Where???” At this time my girls walked up to me and they could read my face and said what’s wrong? I couldn’t hardly speak so I said look. And they were like that’s her, where is she, lets go get her. I was texting- how’s she look by this time because I was trying to remember what they retrievers lady told me to say if a sighting came over. I asked a few more questions, when, were they able to call her?

20 minutes ago, he went to get a neighbor, he tried to call her, she was shy… 20 minutes ago- did you see that? Shortly after the time, I “talked to mom”. Jesus is good. God is good. He sent this miracle. This young man had gone back and got her. She let him carry her to his house (she’s never let anyone outside of the family too close to her). The Lord did that. We went there and picked her up.

She is very skinny.(Taken Thursday after vet kept her overnight)

But she is okay. A little antibiotics and bandaging for her raw feet but she is okay. We will be nursing her back to health as far as she went 13 days without food and lost 17 pounds (best guess). But she is good. She knows her home, her family, her old routines. She is amazing.

God is Amazing! So now I believe my job is to spread the word of His miracle! I love Him so much and glad He chose me to testify. It is through Him that she was saved!

“The voice of the Lord echoes above the sea. The God of glory thunders. The Lord thunders above the mighty sea. The voice of the Lord is powerful; the voice of the Lord is fully of majesty.”
Psalm 29: 3-4.

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Running is emotional

Running is full of tears and I am not just talking the “fat girl running” image of tears. That does happen (and for you that don’t know what that is- it is the kid that was in the back getting teased for running so slow in gym class- the one that constantly got teased for their weight- the one that never felt good enough). But what I’m talking about is the tears that come for emotional build up.

Running is a release, you have no choice to let go when you run because you need to breathe, you need to move, and you don’t have time to concentrate on holding it all in. Yesterday was hard on me with my girl still missing. Today, I ran the path that we run together. Running certain ways at certain times reminded me of her training and I paused to let a tear come out.

Did you know it is healthier to pause in running? Get a heart monitor- one for running- the app will tell you your ideal heart range and then when you hit your max, you back off and walk to get it down to the low end. Helps to not stress your heart as much as straight running- plus you’ll find you get faster doing this and it will take your heart longer to hit that high end so you will have to run faster to get it there. This will help prepare for those distance runs where you will want a nice steady pace.

Anyway, I wanted to just say it is okay to cry while running. Run it out though. Take a moment, walk, and then gather yourself and run it all out of you. Stress will go down and you will feel great!

On my journey- I’ve had a great week. Monday- Power Yoga, Tuesday- Ran 2 miles, Wednesday- Yoga for the back (was a little stiff and sore from Tuesday), Today- ran 2 miles and did my pre and post yoga workout. Tomorrow will be runner’s yoga and then bigger runs for the weekend. Next week, I will try and reintro my weights again on my shorter run days.

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All signed up

Well, technically I haven’t signed up for the race itself but for the cause. I joined our team at Church and ready to run for World Vision! Very exciting and scary at the same time. I will be running my 2 miles this morning and meeting a friend for coffee after.

I developed a schedule over the next year to get me to 26 miles. I really need a treadmill or gym membership! Or I will be running in snow in rain to start. lol Say some prayers for me and my dedication. I will need to learn a lot about eating right for running. I can only imagine how much fuel I will need to store. 😉

Thank you all for your support.

 

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Missing

Our dog went missing on Thursday night which brought on a lot of emotions and thoughts. First thing I did was take to facebook, which brought in a couple of responses. This lead me to crying and leaving work because one of the responses was that a neighbor thought she was hit by another car in front of them. I’ve only been in my job for four months and wow is what I can say. People dropped what they were doing to help me close up my desk and leave. Then a couple of people came straight to find me when they were done with my shift. They went around to the neighborhoods to see if anyone saw her.

In the meantime, my family searched the area that it was thought that she was hit. No sign of her. We had went through a neighbor’s yard to get to that area- someone that I had not met before. He jumped in his car to search. My son had been walking around trying to find her and several people started searching with him. Friends on facebook jumped in their cars to search. No sign of her anywhere.

I fell apart that evening. Yes, I missed her dearly- she is the happiest but scaredest dog I know- you know boxers, the moment that you walk into the room they are so happy to see you wiggling everything they have. She would have done anything to please her family. She got off her collar because she was afraid of the flags near the new homes. That made her bolt across the street which led to a whole new set of fears for her.
But I was also so worried for my kids- A because he was the one walking her, E- because she had a special bond with her, and K- because the bond was different (medical) but they also had a bond like no other. I was also so overwhelmed by the support that I experience from so many people including people I don’t know. I learned the power of facebook that night and if you want something to spread quickly- there is a way through facebook.

I went to bed late as I kept checking the doors, barely slept and officially got up at 4am. I went straight to the doors again to check for her- still not here. I paced around for the next two hours- during this time, E came to me and said she felt bad for not spending time with her lately because of school and activities. I was a mess with no sleep. Then, around 6- I knew I needed coffee and I forgot to get some to make. So I thought about going to our local coffee shop but this made me break. See, everytime I go there (and quite possibly too much), I bring our sweet girl. It is her favorite routine- go for a ride to get a treat! She wasn’t home to go and this killed me. I knew I needed sleep, so I fell asleep on the couch for an hour which led to K and I going out searching one more time.

In this time, I had so many people reach out to me on how they could help. I started to realize how focused that we as people get on the bad. There was a shooter, people are crazy, out to get you… This opened my eyes to the goodness out there. So many prayers have been received it is truly amazing.

My original post had 81 shares and 93 comments +plus all the comments that it got when I shared to swap and shop.
My lost dogs post got 455 shares (no I am not kidding- wow) and again many comments.
I took to the vet and rescue pages. another 100 shares. I’ve had several people reach out by messenger to help.
My husband who works out of town had several people that don’t live near here saw they saw my post on facebook (I’m not friends with them there)- it spread that far.

Just stop and think about how far this all went. We are talking about 700 possible shares and maybe more that I don’t even know about. hundreds of comments and so many that just jumped in a car to search. Amazing- God is powerful!

So I did get overwhelmed and consumed by this in the last few days. I wanted to find her and nothing else mattered. I forgot to let God control it. I’m not saying that I stop trying to look but I can’t let it control my life. So in Church yesterday, I was pretty depressed- Sunday School helped to take my mind of of everything for a moment. Then Church- wow- sometimes a sermon was meant for you. Discontentment. It leads to a spiral of negativity and so much worse. Contentment with God, leads to happiness. It is easy to go crazy when all you see is dark but letting go and letting God can work wonders. I trust that the Lord is moving- I mean the testimony is in the way the word has spread. So now I need to sit back and let Him work. While I continue to do His work that He has meant for me.

We miss our girl deeply and pray for a safe return. But we must now stop the bickering and depression in the house and trust that God is faithful. Please continue to pray for us. Thank you for all that have supported us. If you see her, you know what to do- call us- call the vet- or get someone very calm, very gentle with treats that will let her come to you. She is scared.

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The Ten Commandments

Why does it feel so hard in today’s world to follow these. I feel like the last 5 are easy- the first 5 are the hardest. For some, I know it will be different. The last ones- okay do not murder- easy enough, I have no desire to do this and it’s the law. Don’t steal- no need for this either- now I will admit sometimes I am faced with that dilemma of the checkout clerk forgetting to scan something (the water on the bottom of the cart right before their shift is over and they are trying to hurry) and do I go back into the store after unpacking the cart in the car to pay or not. It is laziness not to and technically stealing. Or lying- which is the next one. This one can be tough at time and what about omitting the truth- is that a lie? So I do struggle a bit with that piece of it- does everyone need to know everything? I think not but who am I to judge- pray on it and whatever the Holy Spirit tells you is the answer. Okay and the last one can be tricky too but not in the way that I think it was intended but maybe I am wrong. So do not want your neighbors things. So I don’t want their stuff literally but they may have a deck that I could see looking great on my house so I may work hard to earn and buy it. But I would never want something to the point of stealing it or anything or that sorts, which is they way that I see this commandment being.

Now on to what I see are the tougher ones. Honor God- okay seems easy but here’s the thing, I don’t put him first in everything I do. I make my own decisions without asking God first if it is right and often times, I find myself hating whatever I thought was good at the time. Do not take the Lord’s name in vain- wow how this one has became a regular thing to do in our society. It is tough when in anger or frustration not to call out God D… it or whatever way you use it – God Bless America is one I used to hear out of one person’s mouth. Do not make idols- now I do not take gold and make it into something to worship but we all do this with famous people or even with something as simple as our home. We put a lot of energy into whatever the item is (sports, money, concert, TVs, yardwork- cleaning) and take away our time with God. These things take His place so they do become idols in that way.

The Sabbath- this is one I’ve been studying greatly as of recently as I will be leading a Bible study in it in just a couple weeks. How hard is it to rest???? Did you know that margin is needed in our lives? We, as women blame Eve for taking the apple and making us miserable. But truth be told, we can’t handle margin either. God made a margin by saying they could not touch the tree, just as He has set the Sabbath aside for us. When is the last time you rested with the Lord?

 

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Say what?!

A couple Sundays ago, I was watching the TC Marathon app for my friend who decided to do a marathon this year. I saw her train all summer to get there. And thought I’d never do that. I’ve said never a million times. It’s crazy 26 miles who has the patience for that? Then in Church, I found out the missions leader was running too but not just because but for a cause. And next year she was bringing it to the church to join her. Suddenly I thought I want to do that. I didn’t say anything. I went home and napped. I checked in on my friends and said I can do this. I’m going to do it. So I’ve been mapping out my year of running to get to 26.2. Every time I say that number I’m like what the heck am I thinking!?!? I decided what better to keep up with this than to have you join me? So here I am starting my path to a marathon and by the way I’m turning 40 this year so that’s encouraging me a bit too. Lol

All my love,

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